My clean date was 5/18/16. Over the last several months I've had severe difficulty sleeping. I've been taking 1000mg of seroquel for years in the xr form. I had a hard time waking up after I finally went to sleep and I'd b dragging ads all day but as soon as bed time would come around, a switch would flip and I'd b wide awake. I had a doctors apt Nov. 30 and I told my doctor my problem. He wanted to put me on a benzo but I told him I didn't want to b put on a narcotic. So he put me on ambien which he said was non narcotic. I took one at 5 that night and I wake up the next day in the hospital not knowing WTF happened. Over the next week, I slowly get the whole story. At some point I got up and took 17 more, trashed my place, ate all kinds of weird **** and left it all over the place then wondered around the halls of my apt falling out till someone found me and called the emts. I let them into my place and they searched it. They found all my psych pills and the empty bottle of ambien and made the assumption that I was trying to kill myself. I got pink slipped and spent a week in the psych ward. The only good that came of this was that they got my psych meds straightened out and I'm taking a fraction of the sequel. Yesterday my sponsor hit me with that he talked about it and believes I had a relapse cuz I didn't take the medication as prescribed and it caused me to take a medication that mind altering effects effects. I had an adverse reaction to a medication that has a well documented history of causing people to do odd and crazy things while they are still asleep and not in control of their faculties and leaving no memory of what had happened. So, I ask you, did I relapse. When I got back to my place I cleaned it and found 12 ambien kicked all over the place. I mustve dropped the bottle and been eating what I could find on the floor. I took a pic of them and flushed them. Is this a relapse. What is a really thorough def of relapse? And what is a thorough def of mind altering substance? Are my psych meds mind altering, cigarettes, coffee etc.?