Hi. I am desperate for any help from anyone with experience. I am on a really small dose of methadone daily. But I take large amounts of codeine also. My doc told me to cut down the codeine myself which I tried over ten days. At the end I got very bad depression and self harmed and was very suicidal. Do I've had to up my codeine dose again or I will end up dead. I rang a hospital to ask if I could be admitted -I had been there before for alcohol abuse -but they refused to admit me cos I left before the programme ended Now I'm on my own, suicidal, taking methadone and codeine to try and stay alive and hold down a job. I feel really let down and I know I brought thus on myself. Can anyone give me any advice? I've no idea what to do or where to go anymore. Thanks '!