Hello my name is Lara I am a thirty year old mother of 3 girls. At one point in my life I was addicted to any and all pain medicine. It started when I was eighteen years old. I went to the doctor because i was having a horrible pain in my stomach. Come to find out it was gall bladder stones. They started me on IV morphine which took the pain away instantly then sent me home on vicodin for pain. When I took the vicodin I felt like a different person. I felt like a better mother, a better girl friend, I could easily talk to people. I was always the shy type so I loved being able to openly talk to people. I was on vicodin for about 8 years until they finally done surgery and removed my gall bladder. By then I was hooked. I needed them to get out of bed to be with my children. I started buying them from people on the street. I eventually started buying stronger medicine because vicodin wasn't working any longer. I tried any kind of pain medicine as long as I could feel that high. This went on for about 2 years when finally I had nothing. I stole from my husband my family anyone it didn't matter. One day I said I have to change so I got up and went to a Methadone clinic. I have been going to MMT methadone maintenance treatment for over a year now. I can hold a full time job take care of my children pay bills and live in a sense a normal life. My question is... How long is too long to be going to a methadone clinic? When should I start to taper down? Did I do the right thing by going to this clinic? I feel better about my addiction but I want to be free! I am terrified of the withdrawls! Any and all advice accepted thanks!