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Trying to quit but thirsty for knowledge

Discussion in 'Marijuana' started by Georgepayton, Jan 11, 2017.

  1. Georgepayton

    Georgepayton Member

    I've been smoking on and off for 6-7 years now. Only about 2 years ago I started smoking less frequently. Since then, when I smoke I think differently. I realize things about myself, and my surroundings that I don't while sober. I have access to parts of my brain that allow me to think from another perspective. Since I'm all about personal growth and learning about myself, I've become addicted to the high that marijuana gives me. Not because it makes me mellow but because it teaches me things. The thing is that I'm not capable of smoking ocasionally. When I buy weed, I can't seem to have that bag hanging around without touching it. I'm also a lone smoker, I don't like smoking with people unless they think like me. I like to be in my own thoughts.

    When I realize things, often things I need to change, I get motivated and promise myself to quit and to then act on these changes. I can't make these changes while high because they are often social changes. So I quit and the motivation stays for a few days but then fades away as my sobriety comes back. Then I start smoking again and have all these plans that just fade away everytime I quit. I'm stuck in this pattern and I want to get out. Either by being able to smoke occasionally or by quitting altogether but keeping the motivation. What ends up happening is I buy a couple grams, smoke everyday until the bag is empty, quit, and repeat.

    My situation is probably different than others but I would love to know how to approach this in another way to get what I want.
  2. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    @Georgepayton... Welcome to the forums and thanks for sharing with us.

    I wish I had some solid answers for you, but I don't. Based on what you've told us, my suggestion would be to quit smoking altogether for a reasonably long period of time and see how that goes. Being dependent on weed--or any mind-altering substance--isn't a very good thing. That said, your decision to smoke or not to smoke is a personal one.

    If I were you I would consider seeing an addiction specialist. They may be able to answer some of the questions you have and make suggestions for you.

    Thanks again for sharing.
  3. Horace Nevil

    Horace Nevil Member

    If you want to keep smoking, there's a few things you need to change. I've fallen into this routine as well, it's difficult to get started, but once you do, things get easier. If you are only purchasing a few grams, I would speculate (speculating), that you haven't got a whole lot of money. That's not a dig on you, weed is over priced to account for risk and greed of dealers. That would make it difficult to move to a new setting (with new options of activities, jobs, and people). However, if you've got family or friends in another part of the state or country where there are jobs, I'd advise asking if they could put you up for a bit until you can afford a place of your own, or pay rent and live there for a bit to stash some money away. The problem you have with weed is that you can't afford to use it and do other worthwhile things, ie traveling, or whatever interests you. If you were overwhelmed with options of things to do, you would conserve your weed and when it ran out, you'd find something else to do. I'm guessing you are not addicted to weed (physiologically impossible), rather you've found solace there, and your routine has become a dead end and a trap. Don't put it away or try to shut it off, but let it be something extra that enhances life after you have already found fulfillment. PM me bud
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  4. Horace Nevil

    Horace Nevil Member

    PS ignore the eggheads who tell you that it's a problem with weed. Weed is great, especially for people with minds like yours who use introspection. Those who can't handle weed, don't understand themselves. It's especially hard to look through a lens at yourself, we all would find things unpleasant, that makes us human. If everyone could take time to examine their own lives, this world wouldn't have so many assholes.
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