No mother figure

Hello, just a lil bit about my live. My mother has been on pill my hole life. She would stay missed up all time time. I had to cook and clean for us including my sis. I had to wait on her head and foot. I had to take care of sis. As I got older the more I did she didn't take me to get my license I walk to the store for her. She would ground me for no reason just so me and my bf would fall apart. At 17 I couldn't go no were. So I let to go live with my granny. And I moved in with my boyfriend after that. Now I'm married to him. After moving out more I find out. She sleep with most of my bf's. She started doing more pills and got worse. Now she is on niddles. And I no longer talk to her. But I have tried to forgive her and have a relationship with her multiple times. And allways has failed. Its not waste not haven a mom who cares for u. Who is always there for u.