August 5 to now is 132 unless I counter wrong. No drugs. Just checking in with you guys. Sorry I disappeared for so long. New career is keeping me busy. New life, really. After we got engaged he decided to buy a house. That was very, very stressful. I could barely breathe until we closed. I thought of coke no more than usual, which is surprisingly little for a long term addict. The one thing I’m struggling with is my weight. I had such a great little body. I’ve put on about 15 pounds since I quit using. I’m trying to take it off, but I also used to have TONS of energy to workout with the drugs as well as barely eating. It scares me because I’m not happy with the way I look and my insecurities got me into the drugs in the first place. On the bright side, my fiancé loves me and tells me I’m beautiful every day. It helps me see some perspective. I hope you’re all well.