...sober. I’ve been a daily cocaine user for the last 15 years. I didn’t think I could stop. I never told anyone. I wanted to quit, but I have tremendous body dysmorphia and I was scared to get fat. Over time I just got used to having coke on me and I didn’t want to not have it. So, when my boyfriend got a great job offer in another state, I said let’s go! Here is my chance for a fresh start. I’m happy to say that I’m in my new home and I haven’t used cocaine in 3 whole days. I want it, but I don’t feel like I’m going to die without it. Can I really do this?