Hello, in my early-mid twenties I began a battle with pills which quickly escalated to heroin. I was talked into by my parents entering a treatment center where I found out I was pregnant. Unfortunately, I was not given many options at that time. I could either stay on a methadone treatment through my pregnancy and risk my child having withdraw effects after birth, or not take it and risk a miscarriage. So i began a methadone treatment and continued it even after birth. It is over 7 years later and throughout those years I have just slowly got myself down to the lowest dose they offer and have been stuck there for over a year now. I finally have put my foot down and said to myself I can not be there forever its time to move on. So today is the first Monday in 7 years I did not head to the clinic to get my weekly medicine. Terrified is an understatement. Not only am I scared of whats to come, but I have broken the routine I have come so comfortable with. I am thinking of this as a dosage decrease and nothing more. I know eventually I will feel ok and comfortable. But this time, I will for once in a long time tell myself how proud I am of what I just accomplished. Besides the birth of my daughter, this will be the biggest accomplishment of my life. I am sure my body is going to thank me after its all over. Day 1..here we go. Anyone else been through??