I need some advise please. My Husband and I are addicted to pain killers. I mainly get them from him which was initially a fun thing every once in a while to needing them every day to feel ok. My new ok has turned me into someone I don’t even recognize anymore. As long as there is an abundance of pain pills I’m happy, otherwise just miserable. My hubby is the only one working, I cook and clean and am mostly at home w the dog who is our child. I am not currently on his insurance and have been considering getting help for myself but don’t know where to turn. Money is tight for us and without insurance I don’t know what my options are. I don’t want to leave my Hubby, I love him but sometimes feel we are not good for each other. I am codependent and believe he may be as well. I don’t want to hurt him but also want to be a better person, I just don’t know how to go about doing it. My mind has so many thoughts so I just try to focus on one thing at a time. I feel that being sober would be great but having opiates around I don’t know if I could manage staying sober. I want to work but am a mess! I am depressed and feel helpless and alone. Anyone with some ideas or advice for me? Thank you for reading.