I am a Canadian in Europe without health insurance... and I am addicted to Fentanyl. I am so scared that I am considering suicide as a way of dealing with my addiction (and the shame associated with my addiction) I became addicted six months ago when a European doctor reccomended that I take 100 microgram Fentanyl patches to (as he put it, get me off of the opiates I was using to combat chronic pain.) Had I known what this was, I would have punched him in the eye. I have fallen so low that part of my addiction pattern is to chew and suck out the remaning medication from the old patch I change (Yes I know.... it is shameful.) I dont know what to do. I know I need help but I cant afford treatment (and nobody wants to treat someone unless they have money). The most fucked up thing about my situation is that my girlfriend is willing to pay for my Fentanyl patches (1300 euros for a seven month supply), yet absolutly will not pay nor consider any form of treatment. (The reason being that by paying for the Fentanyl, she has total control over me.) The reason I know this is because of what she said when we argued over my wanting treatment. "I dont want you going to treatment and having other women controlling and influencing you. You would be gone for two weeks and I dont want that. I am in hell. Someone please help me before I commit suicide.