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Addicted to Ketamine

Discussion in 'Other Substances' started by boy, Mar 24, 2019.

  1. boy

    boy Member

    Does anyone here do Ketamine?

    Initially I had been taking around 200mg on my own in my room, putting my favorite psychedelic music on and going into the "K-hole" for a round of self-discovery and vivid curiosities - Going through an indescribable wormhole, seeing the most interesting and bewildering things - Walls with textures and patterns more defined than the real eye can muster as well as many more incredible sights.

    Recently I have become more dependent on the substance - Whenever I am having a bad day (which are coming on thick and fast these days) I get home and don't even weight it out anymore, I just do it by eye and take the ket to get away from real life (I could take from anywhere to 300-600mg of S-Isomer Ketamine)

    There hasn't been a day where I haven't thought about ket for at least 6 months now and i'm growing increasingly volatile with my doses/emotions. I go to university but I feel this drug is taking over my life to the point where i'm ashamed of myself.

    I told myself I would never get addicted but It seems I have failed in that assumption.

    I don't wan't to tell my family because I feel it's more drama than it's worth.

    I need some suggestions

    P.S. I have always had an addictive personality, playing video games incessantly as well as bi-daily masturbation.
  2. Dominica

    Dominica Recovery Advocate @ Moving Beyond Codependency Community Listener

    @boy hello and welcome. i'm not familiar with ketamine. wonder if you would be willing to attend a support group meeting like narcotics anonymous... there may be some in your town. also, your college may have free counseling. something to think about.

    if you have an addictive personality, then you may want to reach out for help from an addiction specialist... better to get this under control now, than have it spiral for years and years.

    also, keep educating yourself about addiction and recovery.... and know that we are here to help any way we can.
  3. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Welcome to the community, @boy. And thanks for sharing with us. I'm sorry to hear about your struggles with ketamine. Ketamine has been in the news a lot lately because it's been shown that it can help people who battle severe depression that hasn't been helped by other medications. But it just goes to show you that pretty much any drug can cause negative effects if it's abused.

    I agree with the advice @Dominica gave you. Doing a support group meeting like NA or SMART Recovery might help you with getting off of ketamine. And seeing an addiction specialist would be highly recommended, too. They can assess your situation and recommend the best next steps/treatment for you. You don't have to keep living a life that's controlled by your addiction. And it's okay to ask for help.

    These two articles may be helpful to you:

    We're always here if you need us. To provide help, support, encouragement, and a listening ear. Feel free to reach out and lean on us anytime. You are not alone. And I know you can overcome your addiction if you're willing to work at it.
  4. Jake1e

    Jake1e Member

    @boy , I feel you man me myself I had a rough time with opioids and ket mixed... But I went to NA couple of times and it was okay but the real game changer was. To delete my dealers number, clear my room from any remains of drugs and start exercising, hang out, get hooked on something else, cigarettes idk...
  5. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @boy... How are you doing? If you get a chance, stop by and let us know.