I'm new here, but would like to post my situation and hopefully get some feedback. I too am a gma on meth. I've been using for about 23 years. I am getting to a point that I feel I'm starting to think it's time to stop. I feel nervous bcuz I know it will be extremely hard. I'm a mother of three and gma of four. I love all my kids and grandbabies so much. And honestly, I don't feel like I'm your typical addict. In some ways yes, in that I don't work anymore, I lost all my teeth, but have dentures thanks to my mom, I use meth everyday bcuz it's gotten to be routine for me and bcuz if I don't I go thru withdraw symptoms. Also as a result of my addiction, I've racked up an arrest record that I otherwise would not have. The ways I feel I'm not your typical tweeker is that I feel like I still have a pretty good grip on reality. I have taken care of all four of my grandbabies since the day they were born as a babysitter for my daughter's. They have trusted me with them bcuz I'm not all spun out. Don't get me wrong, I've had my moments, when I'm not being gma. But for the most part I'm still pretty rational, and normal and functional. My family has suffered bcuz of my addiction, I'm aware of this. I don't pretend to be perfect and some of my family relationships have irrepairable damage. I feel that I've been shamed and treated unfairly by family members in an effort to make me change. But it's only made me bitter. It hurts me alot that they treat me the way they do. They don't understand that in spite of my drug abuse, I am still a human being and I still have feelings. I am seriously thinking about an inpatient rehab, but I have not begun to look into it yet. I'm not sure when my transformation will begin, but I do know that I don't want to be this way until I die. If anybody has any ideas on how I go about this I'm definitely interested in hearing your advice. Thank you for listening.