Well to start i went to jail last summer for three weeks, my wife and i both had been on heroin for roughly a year and a half. When we started i had never done it before, but she had been an addict and off of it for a year or so before that. When i went to jail i obviously went through the withdrawals and came off it inside the jail. My wife on the other hand went completely wild while i was away. She had dealers staying at our house, and her partying with other dealers in motels. She told me once i got out that she had stopped once she ran out of stuff that was left behind with her when i was locked up. I believed her until many different people were telling me other stories. And i have to think this many different, unrelated people wouldnt all be conspiring against her and lying. Its just too coincidental. She apparently had quite a few mmf threesomes for the drug, had men sleeping with her in our bed for it, even posed for pictures in our bed with another man too. Let a guy have her in a shabby motel with a whole room full of people watching for ive been told a half gram. Wow. Of course i am heartbroken by this, completely. But i love her and want to forgive her and i feel that the addiction is what did this, not the woman i married, but the woman who was hopelessly hooked on that stuff. Shes currently in jail now and clean and feeling good. But before she went i confronted her about these allegations, at first i didnt show her the photos of her in bed with another, just said the things i heard. She flat out denied it and tried to turn it around on me, and say that i was the one doing wrong. Im unfortunately used to her doing that to me so i didnt let that part of it bother me. But when confronted with photo and reputable sources evidence and even texts she had sent talking about these things she still flat out denies it and says if any of it really happened then she must have been taken advantage of, or raped. My question is when a woman is that hooked to heroin do they sometimes sleep with dealers and do things otherwise they'd never do for their fix? Would it be legit to believe her when she says she doesnt even remember any of it. She was conscious from what ive been told but she says she knows nothing of any of it, no names, faces events, nothing. Could it be true that she was in a state of blackout but still awake and talking, driving, and living her life? People say im stupid to believe her but shes my wife and i want to think shes being honest. If shes lying to me thats what will hurt the most, the lies, because i can forgive the actions cause i k ow what a hold that stuff has on her. Sleeping with dealers years before ruined her first marriage, her ex never touched a drug and wasnt understanding or sympathetic to her whatsoever. I do understand what it can do to someone, but i dont know if i can believe her story of eing taken advantage of like that w no recollection whatsoever. I was only gone three weeks in jail, and i have pretty much confirmed 9 different dealers/middle men she slept with to get to more heroin. Does anyone have experience with this, or any woman here been in her situation and also feel they were taken advantage of too and they didnt even remember it? Please, any input will be helpful. Since she has been in jail ive really been struggling with this.