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Discussion in 'Other Substances' started by gracer, Apr 30, 2015.

  1. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    I don't blame him! I'd have done the same, but I'll not have that option, so if I actually decide to go for it i might have to repeat several courses :/

    Well, some say it's a delicate condition. I've a cavernoma in my caudate nucleus. Last time they checked it was 1 cm big. It might have been there for very long, but it started to grow bigger and bigger because of the PCOS treatment I was taking (combined pill). So now I'm treating my PCOS with homeopathy, since I can no longer take pills with estrogen in it. I hope it stops growing :/ I don't know if it is stress or the tumor, but my weird sleeping patterns are now weirder :/ No transition from being ''asleep'' to being wide awake. Last night I was dreaming, and in a sec I was wide awake. It's scary... the other day my eyes were wide open when I ''woke up''.

    Hahaha, if I ever have a stroke is going to be her fault for sure, lol. I'll be just happy if she stays away from my house :p I hope i'm not asking much. She is not welcome :p We will see how cynical she is... I hope she doesn't invite herself for dinner. Wish me luck! Let's hope she has some decency and decides not to visit.
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  2. LilAnn

    LilAnn Community Champion

    lol, this is the funny part to me... I was married for 10 years before, and then seperated from that husband for 2 years when I met him. I swore I would never be in a relationship again. I had no use for them what so ever. Everything got crazy after I changed my mind to be with him. But I'm still friends with the roommate... just the kind of friends that talks to each other like 3 times a year.
  3. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    Oh! Married for 10 years? That sounds like a lot time to me! Longest relationship I've had has been 5 years,lol. I must sound like such an inexperienced person. As for your roommate, at least you talk from time to time ;) i've childhood friends I don't think I'l ever see or talk again with. People change... A LOT.
  4. LilAnn

    LilAnn Community Champion

    lol, No you don't sound inexperienced at all. Believe me, as much BS can happen in 5 years as can in 10. You just have more time to develop "automated responses" to the BS.

    I know what you mean about childhood friends. I have so many of my childhood friends on Facebook that I actually feel almost popular. But I don't talk to them at all. They are just there. I'm sure its my doing because they will still be great friends with our childhood, mutual friends. They'll talk and reminisce all the time! And I'm just like, "oh... your parents didn't treat ME like family...":( lol
  5. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    Yesterday he was trying to be mean :p You know, he started making those jokes that are kinda insulting, I was just laughing and answered the same way. I think I'm getting better ad better at handling BS ;) Glad all those years being miserable with a guy didn't go to waste ;) You always make me see things from a different angle (a better one).

    Don't you hate it when childhood long time lost friends come into your life again, just to try to use you fro their own purposes as soon as they have the chance. That happened to me 3 years ago. The girl wanted me to work where she worked, just so she could take the bonus. Doesn't happen always, but when it does it's so annoying.
  6. Sparkster

    Sparkster Community Champion

    You took the words right out of my mouth in your second paragraph. She says those who criticize her just don't have the money to do the same but how many millionaires and billionaires are there in the world who have no intention of ever doing so or have any insecurities about their appearance? Lots of them! This is absolutely a self-esteem/self-worth issue and is down to her own insecurities, nothing more.
  7. LilAnn

    LilAnn Community Champion

    When my husband starts the mean jokes, I tell him "this is why we can't be friends" or "this is why we can't be together". Then I tell him how bad he smells. And all of my responses are along the line of, "your boss called earlier. He asked me if I could possibly convince you to take a bath. because you smell bad." or other stories like that. Its a lot easier for me to deal with his jokes that way. We went to Lowes once. He opened the hatchback to put the rolls of insulation in. Then, he grabbed me and threw me in the back and closed the hatch. But instead of getting mad, I laughed it off. there was no harm done and it wasn't like a closed trunk. We still laugh about it now. If you don't let those jokes and things get to you, its so much easier. I'm not saying let him throw you in the trunk of his car. But you should try poking back at him. Last night my husband told me, (while on his playstation mic) that my belly button is actually a tiny penis. So I asked him, "uh oh! Are you mad because mine is bigger than yours?" Its easier to have a sense of humor about the stuff. Because they are never going to stop. And, this may sound devious, but if you two laugh together a lot, and his mom just nags him about you when they talk... guess who he's going to want to talk to most? That sounds so manipulative, doesn't it? I don't mean it that way, at all. But it does work.
  8. Coolkidhere

    Coolkidhere Community Champion

    Oh man neuro is not my strongest subject lol. Anyway, that seems really scary. I do hope you treat your PCOS naturally so that you would not need to take any pills. And for the Cavernoma also to shrink in size. Maybe through prayers it will. Miracles do happen.:) Although if you can go for the surgery, it will be better! Then you can go be a doctor after.:)

    Well I really hope not. Though I remember my MIL visiting my son everyday when we were at my mom's house. LOL. I hope your MIL is not that exaggerated enough to visit everyday. There were times that I just want to lock the door but my son is really noisy so we will be caught. Haha.
  9. LilAnn

    LilAnn Community Champion

    Could it be the treatments thats causing the crazy sleep transitioning? I know its not the same thing, but I have taken medication before, where I was posting on here or on facebook, and then I suddenly wake up. But instead of dozing off like a normal person, I continued typing. I read back over it and had no idea I had typed those things. I know your on homeopathy treatments, but any kind of treatment can mess with your dreams. Maybe if its the treatments you can switch something up and stop. I know that can't be safe. What if it happens when you are driving, or visiting the Grand Canyon, or something like that?

    And if its the stress, that can be an easy fix, too, maybe?
  10. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    Oh no, I don't doze off all of a sudden ;) It was like I can't reach deep sleep for some reason, ''nucleo C.M.P. Forte'' made it really bad, so I had to stop. It was so bad I was dreaming one night and all of a sudden I was conscious with no transition at all and my eyes wide open. I was so scared... did I dream with my eyes wide open? Lol. Some meds are hell, I stopped taking those pills but the problem continued, now things are much better, but I think it will never be like before. The transition from ''asleep'' to awake is no longer marked :( My last EEG showed I have sleep disorders, something I didn't have before :(

    My current neurosurgeon sucks... he doesn't explain anything, sometimes (many times) my questions are replied with silence, lol. It's annoying. I'll see a new one in November. I'll see the bad one to ask him to refer me for a MRA. Since I've heard getting a MRA after finding a cavernoma in the brain is a must.
  11. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    Thanks, it's scary sometimes if I stop to think about it. I am part of a forum for people who suffer from this same thing. It's scary, but many of them have suffered strokes, and have other neurological deficits, like one leg going numb and so on, facial twitching, death, etc. I'm in trouble, but I trust and pray god will help me :) I just need to resist a pair of years! So hopefully I can have surgery and remove this nasty bleeding seizure causing memory wrecking thing.

    I'll see a new neurosurgeon soon, right now I'm on meds for controlling my blood pressure only. As well as my homeopathic treatment, and I also take 1,000 mg Metformin daily to fight my insulin resistance. So far so good, but I do get headaches daily.

    Gosh, just when you thought you were free from her she does that D: No, I have the feeling she is not like that, she doesn't do that with her daughter, but who knows, maybe she does that with us D: I hope she is not so cynical, she would need to be super cynical in order to believe she is welcome to our house (welcome by me). I hate to be rude, but I'll open the door to her and just go upstairs or continue doing whatever I was doing before she got there.

    What did you do when she visited you? Sometimes it's so hard to know what to do when your relationship with someone is already so awkward D:
  12. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    Lol, omgggg!! You guys seem to have a very similar couple dynamics to ours, lol. I must admit at first I was taken off guard with his first jokes, when he first woke up in the morning was the worse!!! His jokes weren't even funny, he once said something like: '' maybe I should have picked a Filipino woman instead'', and I was like ''Really?, because the man of my dreams is Swedish...'' Needless to say he didn't like the joke lol. I found the Filipino woman part funny, because he told me more than once Asian women are not his type.

    Yeah, is never going to end, lol. My guy has calmed down a little, because once he went over the top, and I got upset (he is really slow, he made the mistake to say something no man should ever say to his current partner) because he had already done that several times. Back then I didn't know he was sooo slow, so I was very angry. He has been clam ever since.

    Yesterday we were joking again, lol. It was kinda fun, even though we were picking at each other. It is true it's better to laugh everything off! We had fun and I think we bonded more. I want to make sure I am the one he enjoys talking with most ;)
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  13. Coolkidhere

    Coolkidhere Community Champion

    Do you know what triggered their strokes or neurological deficits? Maybe you just have to avoid some medications or even stress so that your illness wound not be triggered. Also, have you talked to anyone in that forum that also has PCOS and Cavernoma in the Caudate Nucleus? It would be nice to talk to someone who has the same condition as you.

    I remember my MIL suffered a stroke before. She got into a coma. Her neurologist was really good because he did not allow her to be operated on and just confined her. He just gave her medicines and she got better. So it really does matter who your doctor is. Just having an experienced doctor can make a huge difference. I hope your new neurosurgeon can help you!

    Hahahaha! If I do that to her, leave her and continue what I am doing, I will be lectured thoroughly by her and my husband. Lol. They are the unbeatable tandem.

    I just talked to her because if I do not, they will talk about me and how rude I am. That is how they are. You even have to greet everyone in their parties or else you will be considered disrespectful. They have a lot of rules. It is really tiring.:/
  14. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    I was thinking of trying to see if there were someone in this same situation, in this very weird weird situation, lol. Because sometimes when I think about it, it does seem ridiculous that I've an angioma that reacts so much to estrogen. But I haven't tried yet (so busy, but will soon). As for the neurological deficits, well, I think it was because their cavernomas bled. What kind of deficits you experience depends on the location of the CM, or so I heard. It seems the ones located in this area can affect memory, mobility and even the eyes.

    I've heard good things about that neurosurgeon. That is the neurosurgeon most doctors I know go to when they have a neurological problem that requires surgery. So.... *fingers crossed*.

    Awww, I am so sorry to read you don't have the freedom to do that :( I'm so sorry. Mine in laws team up against me too, I'm sure they have already said I am so rude... for whatever reason, (because so far they are the only ones who have been rude to me), but I swear I'm so tired i don't care anymore. I just can't pretend :( I just don't like that people and I have right to feel that way, my fiance knows that. Plus no matter what people do, they always talk crap about them, same with me. If they didn't like something that wasn't even your fault they do that, my PILs are horrible people.

    I hope things get better for you, but I think your MIL being away now is a dream come true, isn't it? Hehehe, God, I felt the same way when the PILs were gone for at least one day or half day. RELIEF!!!
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  15. GenevB

    GenevB Community Champion

    I have a kind of obsession for beauty, but a little different one. I like all the women I stay with to be beautiful, I surround myself by them, and I'm not generally talking about sexual aspects. Of course they all look fit, but it's all about their face, I like to stay around girls with clear blue or green eyes, especially blonde or red-heads.
  16. Coolkidhere

    Coolkidhere Community Champion

    Yeah maybe you can find some people who suffer from the same condition is some forums online. Finding someone in real life can be quite difficult. Oh, that is really scary. Does the cavernoma bleed normally? Or stress and such can make it bleed?

    Yay for that doctor! I hope he can help with your situation and that you can go to him ASAP!

    I would really love not to care about their antics or them. But they always put their noses where it does not belong so I just get frustrated everytime! Just do not mind them though, in your case. It is not nice to be stressed in your condition.:/ They should have the defency to even just act nice since you have an illness.

    It really is a dream come true! My life is so much better without her. I hope your MIL goes far far away too lol! You deserve to be away from them!
  17. LilAnn

    LilAnn Community Champion

    My husband is slow too, in that regard. He knows I cherish honesty and openness. So he has said some things that has left me not talking to him for 2 days, before. I really do want to believe he says these things because of how much I need and want the honesty. But for a while now I've been leaning toward him being kind of slow...
  18. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    Hehehe, some men seem to lack common sense greatly :p It sounds like mine does lack a lot of it. By the way, do you ever snap at yours? I don't really do that anymore since I stopped taking those hormones I was taking (Microgynon - holy mother of god those pills made me feel so angry!) but sometimes I still get irritated when I'm PMSing and he pulls an unfunny joke at my expense.
  19. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    I think it all goes down to blood pressure, but I take medications for that. I shouldn't get on a roller coaster or take aspirin, the former can cause bleeding, the latter can't really cause one, but if one takes places then things might get really ugly D: By the way, I haven't checked yet :/ I've been so busy!

    Things is... they don't know I am sick. It's mater of time until they find out though, but I prefer they don't know it. I mean, they really tried to destroy our relationship last year, and they thought I was healthy... still they said I'd be a burden for his son, can you imagine if they know I've a health issue that might be the cause I retire earlier or so... D: But to be honest it'd not make any difference if they knew it, they're evil and their hatred towards me is irrational :(

    I'm glad you are enjoying this time without her. I hope you guys can get a house and live on your own soon :D I think that changes everything. If I had lived on extra week with my in laws odds are I'd have gone crazy. It was so hard!
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  20. ZXD22

    ZXD22 Senior Contributor

    Many many girls have this problem and I can see why. They want to be like those super models on magazines and get all the "hot guys". Typical, lol.