@Mara I cannot thank you so much for your thoughtfulness and encouragement. Sometimes the best way to avoid a true addiction is to never start. The only reason I take pain medications is because I have serious pain. I'm that person that never tried Medical Marijuana until I was 22 and I only did it to see if it could be an alternative to pain medication. Regardless of my need for these medications, two things I've always sworn to are: Never Buy Narcotics Illicitly Never Use Heroin It is very tempting to break my rule, especially I had my fair share of difficult and stubborn doctors. However, it is never the answer to circumvent your pain management specialist. Going behind his or her back. It only takes one arrest or drug test that doesn't test right for you to get kicked out. Nothing illicit is worth jeopardizing my relationship with my specialist.