I started drinking when I was 19 years old. I basically wanted to do it because everyone else was doing it. It wasn't that I wanted to be popular or anything, I just wanted to see what it was like to drink. I used to go to lots of parties and get drunk because I was starting to get addicted to alcohol. I thought it was cool to be wild and crazy until I started to constantly experience bad things in my life. When that happened, I no longer wanted to drink and have fun. I now wanted to drink as an escape from struggles. When you are young and naive, you don't realize that drinking does not make the problem go away. The problem would still be there once you are sober again. Every time I would drink, I would think about all of the problems going on in my life and begin to lash out at everyone. My drinking and anger caused problems with my family and friends. I had to give out a lot of apologies for my actions because I could not control myself when I got drunk. I would blackout and don't remember anything that happened the day or night before. I prayed a lot that I would change my behavior. It took some time but I am proud of who I am today. I still drink but now I am very careful and I do not let anger get the best of me when I drink. I also do not drink as much as I used to. I have goals in life and I will not continue to let anger and alcohol ruin my life.