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Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by True concern, Feb 8, 2019.

  1. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    It's been awhile since I have created a thread,it's been awhile since I have truly focused completely on the goal I must achieve. Addiction and recovery are very similar roads,both are hard to navigate. These roads remind me of a two way highway,one lane per direction both lead to the unknown and often time's confusing going in either direction. I have struggled for several year's trying to navigate both directions and often time's I have gotten turned around going either direction. I have been digging very deep for the past year,truly trying to return back to even,or square one so I can pick a different more sustainable path.Today I saw my Dr, today I asked for help finding an addiction specialist and also a counselor so early next week I will have a bigger support network which I can admit I need,I need a team behind me so I can finally break completely free of this unhealthy way of living.I am not abusing substances on a major scale when I say substances I am including alcohol and even cigarette's however I desire a life free of it all so I ignored my pride which is another thing I struggle with often time's I am not willing to sacrifice my pride for anything but I am starting to see that has only given these addiction's strength so I am ignoring my gut instinct and doing what's necessary to finally completely beat this addiction issue.I found out after these event's that my mom's Dr suspect's she may have cancer,this breaks my heart because yes I am a momma's boy and I love her so so much.When I heard this news for a brief second I considered getting drunk but in the end I did not,I will seek all the help I can get to help me improve my life and longevity of it and I can't be self destructing any longer,I don't want my mom to see me struggle any longer especially with this possible new affliction she may be going through. I owe all of you a very special thank you.This past year speaking to so many people who struggle with addiction has truly changed my heart and I am grateful for each and everyone of you. So I will wrap this up now and say if I'm not on every day please know I am putting in the work necessary to better me,but I do love you all and I'm not leaving but I must invest some serious effort in me right now.

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  2. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @True concern hey there. thanks for giving us an update. i'm sorry to hear that your mom may have cancer. i hope this is not the case.... and i pray for her. i know you love her so much! and it's a blessing you can be there for her.

    that's great you asked your dr. for help. i hope he can connect you in those areas. yes, a strong support network can be so helpful!! do let us know if he finds you a specialist and counselor!

    i hope your weekend is going well. stay strong. chin up.... and know that we're here!! and we love you!
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  3. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    I love you so much, @True concern. And I'm incredibly proud of you for seeking additional help. Get more people on your team, my brother. They will help! I'm also very sorry to hear about your mom. Trust me: There's nothing wrong with being a momma's boy. I love my mom more than anything in the world!

    I have all the faith in the world in you, my friend. You can defeat everything you want to. And we will walk with you on that journey.
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  4. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    Some thing's are priceless and this message is one of them.Thank you
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  6. Cametobelieve0202

    Cametobelieve0202 Community Champion

    Hello old friend! I haven’t been on here in a while. I’m sorry to hear you are struggling. I’m also sorry to hear about your mom. My mom has cancer as well. I recently had a sobriety anniversary and my mom said the greatest gift she ever got was my sobriety and having a sober daughter. I deeply want this for you and your mom. I’m glad you are seeking additional help. My last sponsor was big on “the bigger the base/foundation the higher the point of freedom/serenity” the more support we have the higher likelihood we will succeed. Best of luck!!!
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  7. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Hearing your mom say that must've melted your heart, @Cametobelieve0202.

    I'm sorry to hear that your mom has cancer. I will keep her in my thoughts and prayers.
  8. DoxyMom

    DoxyMom Community Champion

    @True concern I'm really worried about you. I'm hoping you got good news about your Mom and you have just been busy. I know you have a lot on your plate right now, but we would love to hear how things are going for you.
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  9. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    Indeed it has been quite some time,indeed I have struggled and fought and struggled but my eyes see clear now,I see the truth as do you or so it seems.My condolences for the hurt you endure I fill you're happiness in the words you're mom spoke and indeed our parent's fill joy watching our battles,ours are a bit different in I seek the truth drowned in addiction however they understand what I didn't for the longest time....I struggle for others,to see,to understand who and why and through this struggle I have found the answers.i am now free,sober and in the end the benefit will be more than just mine.For humanity I have sought to make it make sense,to put a spot light on the "Why"and now I have found my inner strength. Finally sober until it's done.STAY STRONG AND GOD BLESS
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