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Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by True concern, Feb 8, 2019.

  1. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    It's been awhile since I have created a thread,it's been awhile since I have truly focused completely on the goal I must achieve. Addiction and recovery are very similar roads,both are hard to navigate. These roads remind me of a two way highway,one lane per direction both lead to the unknown and often time's confusing going in either direction. I have struggled for several year's trying to navigate both directions and often time's I have gotten turned around going either direction. I have been digging very deep for the past year,truly trying to return back to even,or square one so I can pick a different more sustainable path.Today I saw my Dr, today I asked for help finding an addiction specialist and also a counselor so early next week I will have a bigger support network which I can admit I need,I need a team behind me so I can finally break completely free of this unhealthy way of living.I am not abusing substances on a major scale when I say substances I am including alcohol and even cigarette's however I desire a life free of it all so I ignored my pride which is another thing I struggle with often time's I am not willing to sacrifice my pride for anything but I am starting to see that has only given these addiction's strength so I am ignoring my gut instinct and doing what's necessary to finally completely beat this addiction issue.I found out after these event's that my mom's Dr suspect's she may have cancer,this breaks my heart because yes I am a momma's boy and I love her so so much.When I heard this news for a brief second I considered getting drunk but in the end I did not,I will seek all the help I can get to help me improve my life and longevity of it and I can't be self destructing any longer,I don't want my mom to see me struggle any longer especially with this possible new affliction she may be going through. I owe all of you a very special thank you.This past year speaking to so many people who struggle with addiction has truly changed my heart and I am grateful for each and everyone of you. So I will wrap this up now and say if I'm not on every day please know I am putting in the work necessary to better me,but I do love you all and I'm not leaving but I must invest some serious effort in me right now.

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  2. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @True concern hey there. thanks for giving us an update. i'm sorry to hear that your mom may have cancer. i hope this is not the case.... and i pray for her. i know you love her so much! and it's a blessing you can be there for her.

    that's great you asked your dr. for help. i hope he can connect you in those areas. yes, a strong support network can be so helpful!! do let us know if he finds you a specialist and counselor!

    i hope your weekend is going well. stay strong. chin up.... and know that we're here!! and we love you!
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  3. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    I love you so much, @True concern. And I'm incredibly proud of you for seeking additional help. Get more people on your team, my brother. They will help! I'm also very sorry to hear about your mom. Trust me: There's nothing wrong with being a momma's boy. I love my mom more than anything in the world!

    I have all the faith in the world in you, my friend. You can defeat everything you want to. And we will walk with you on that journey.
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  4. True concern

    True concern Community Champion

    Some thing's are priceless and this message is one of them.Thank you
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    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener