So I got over the intense cravings I felt a few days ago after I went to the ER but I realized something over the last few days that scares me to my core. I cant stop thinking about meth... I dont have an urge to do it but it's always on my mind unless I'm playing video games on my phone or jogging. I meant to go to counseling to get things sorted out and I will on Monday but life happened. My grandpa is on dialysis going through end of life care. My family and I had to make a trip across state to see him for possibly the last time. The only thing on my mind while he spoke to us was meth. I was distraught that that was all that my brain could come up with outside of shallow half thoughts. The fact that all he saw was a distracted grandson barely listening must have been hard for him. I just wanted to know if this will pass too? These stages are entirely similar to the withdraws that I felt after doing meth five months ago and those went away after two weeks... But reading peoples stories online this seems like something people go through for years if not permanently. Like I said, I'm going to counseling on Monday but I've been in hotels and a car for the past few days trying to sort this out on my own and it has been mentally and physically taxing. Input from someone who has been through this would be greatly appreciated!
@Acompleteandutteridiot hey there. i'm sorry this is a struggle for you right now... i don't know about the time frame. i do believe we are capable of many things though.... if it's thoughts that are driving you mad... maybe take up a form of meditation practice. this will help your mind to relax more....there are some great "guided meditations" on youtube. try them out. your brain has made the neuroconnections regarding this drug... BUT... it can make new connections, but that will take time, and practice.... follow up with a therapist for sure.. but maybe for now, try the meditation route... that's my input...
@Acompleteandutteridiot... I agree with @Dominica. I would try some meditation to get your mind off of the non-stop meth thoughts. I think it's only natural to think about something a lot after letting it go from your life. But I do believe these obsessive thoughts will pass. Give it some time, my friend.
It never goes away sugar, not 100%. We're different from the others- stronger,once we get out from under them and onto a level playing field with our addictions. Constantly driving that first idea to use again back is endurance training on a daily. They don't have that. You do. Do it with grace, a grateful heart and a willing soul. Make your life one you don't need to escape. You got this.
You talk so caring,so understanding, like some one from the south,forgive me if I'm wrong but you give that soulful feeling through your word's...beautiful I love it