Honestly don’t know if sobriety is the best choice for me. All I do is think about and miss doing drugs/drinking these days. It was the most fun thing for me and living with clinical depression (even though I’m recovered and stable) is still tiring and I will NEVER be the same person I was before having mental illness. It’s something I’ll have for life and I honestly wouldn’t mind have a few years shaved off my life because of drug abuse. It was one of the most fun things for me and now I’m just bored as **** without it. I also never did any hard drugs only marijuana, nicotine, and alcohol (I would only drink with friends, maybe once every week or two weeks). I just hate being sober, it’s boring as **** and I miss what I had. I feel like I will cave into my old glory life any day now.