Hey all, My name is niki and I'm very new here ..I came across the forum the other night as I layed there thinking about how fucked up in life that I am due to my active addiction ..I've been going back and forth between herion an Suboxone and I'm just tired of the life I have to get my self better I have to make my life right ..I'm 32 and have came from along line of addicts ...I'm a single mother of 5 children with no family or support ...(my mother passed away from aids when I was 19 ) my kids and I have no one and when i say nobody it's not just an understatement its facts ..i just want to find the strength to beat this ..andi thank yu all for being here and reading this .and as I read some of the story's here it gives me faith and hope
@Niki88 Welcome to the site,first I commend your courage as you battle addiction and raise 5 children with ZERO family or other support such as friends,etc.The first step is obviously admitting you have a problem and you have,it's also important to find a group you connect with and I think you said reading some stories here on the site has provided you with a sense of comfort and a place you fit in and we are glad to have you.Opiate addiction is very difficult, it's hard to stop something that keeps you from being sick(I know because I'm a opiate addict)who has struggled for quite some time but I keep pushing forward. You can overcome this but it takes serious commitment and will power.I think if you just stick to the suboxone and perhaps seek a therapist which is more important than most addicts understand I believe you can and will overcome this addiction which confines you. Stay Strong and God Bless.
Thank yu so much for taking your time to read and reply back to this I really appreciated that an its been a struggle for of mine for quite sometime now ..but I've always been able to maintain for the most part but I can honestly admit that it has always had a strong grib on me mind body and soul...I just know deep down inside my soul that ive had enuff my children have suffered enuff due to my selfishness it must end ...an I'm the only one that can get it done..
@Niki88 hello and welcome! You are no longer alone. You have this community. This is a great bunch of people who will help you. You have taken the first step. Get some counseling and use the suboxone the way it's supposed to be used. You can do this.
Niki88 You are far from alone , & like many & me , we were not born into a rich & healthy family . & I wanna say I have never done Herion but took any opiate I could for 2 years & have been on Methadone for 15 + years & i'm not proud of that (other than I don't abuse it ) . You can overcome , (easy for me to say I know ) & no matter what has happened in life , tomorrow is always a new day. I'm a little off & slow today but I truly hope you come here for support whenever you want , there are some good & "Real" people here who can help & relate . I do pray for you and your family. Davers