I have always had a history of drug and alcohol abuse ,it started in the 60s with Valium and alcohol ,i had severe depression and basically medicated myself for years .I got so called help in 1976 where i was treated in a mental hospital ,which involved taking me off my Valium in one day and suffering the consequences .I spent 12 weeks in that hospital and within 2 weeks i was using again . Got married had 3 children ,went on benders and always used pills to get me to work and survive .Eventually got clean and sober with mainly AA and a meeting once a week with N/A .Stayed clean for about seven years and then started to abuse Opiates as i had a lot of gut pain . Was given 200 co-codamol pills every month by my Doc and for the first two years was ok and took them as prescribed,but the addict brain was telling me i could get a bigger hit ,long story short i was buying extra off a dealer and was addicted for seven and a half years ,tried to get help but there was a shortage of Subutex and was offered Methadone ,said no as i have to many friends on maths and cant get of . I detoxed my self with alcohol not a good idea for an Alcoholic ,but i did and was sent to a rehab after a week stint in a hospital .the rehab was good did the first step, and when i left on Tuesday the 7th of August and have been clean and sober since the 4th July when i got my own independence from Drugs and Alcohol . I still get PAWS and wake up sometimes sweating and scratching and going thru terrible lows ,the Doc has prescribed blood thinners and blood pressure pills as i had a stroke three and a half years ago ,probably due to Cocaine use at that time .My wife is so supportive of me and this is the first time i have been clean for her in seven and a half years .I have a drug support worker and am doing trauma therapy because of my neglect and abuse as a child ,that is a tough one and i have to do a fourth step with my sponsor . I am so glad to be free and able to go places without having to see a dealer or chemist .Thanks for reading ,take care out there .