Dear friends, i am a 35 year old man, I struggle with bipolar disorder and drug abuse. Pornography has also been one of my greatest and moat challenging addictions. Cocaine came into my life at an early age. Around 17 or 18 years old. When I discovered that cocaine enhanced my perception of pornography, cocaine took over and got out of control. I simply use cocaine to watch pornography. And I only do it during stages of full blown mania. I take psych meds and they help sometimes. But its like a light switch, when its turned on, I go on binges and spend a lot of money on cocaine. I used to be what they call a “functioning addict” but Im getting older in age and relapses are more frequent, more severe and harder to recover from. It interfeera with my life and makes my bipolar even worse. Anyone else experiences this? Pornography and cocaine hand in hand? Or even bipolar and cocaine? I hope someone can relate to my story and you can know that if this happens to you, its more common than you may think, as it weird as it may sound, and that you are not alone. Please share and comment freely. I need help! But I also want to help.