A 20 year old addict. I started at 16. I wouldn't have believed I would be feeling this way. But I want to end my drug use. I can't help myself. I spent my last 40 dollars on half a gram of cocaine. It feels like I am able to do anything. Until the last line has been snorted. Then I go into shakes about 10 minutes after. My head pounds. I have a hard time breathing. The contents of my stomach come up. I ask myself. Why? Why did I choose this life style? Is it my life time trial? I wish I could never do drugs again. I wish sobriety was enough for me. I been to rehab. It was incredible. But 6 months past and here I am again. I am a full blown addict and I hate it.