@Dominica - I received the treatment in July of this year so about 3.5 months ago. It's still a fairly common occurrence. The procedure itself it not painful as the patient is anesthetized / knocked out but it does cause big headaches/migraines in some folks. I have read several of your blog posts and found some good inspiration there - thank you. I'll have to read up on neuroplasticity. @True concern - thank you for the encouragement and feedback on your own medical experiences. I believe the suicidal thoughts I've had have either been a product of my medications or intensified by my medications. Since I've been on psychiatric medications I've had all sorts of new mental issues come up. I only recently started reading and learning and not blindly trusting the "doctors" - mostly because my treatment plan is just not working well. I'm sad to admit that for too long I just ignorantly listened and accepted what I was offered without being informed. The lunesta works most times but sometimes it doesn't. It just depends on if I've had a rough day. Of the stuff I take, I think the ritalin will be the "easiest" to drop so I'm going to talk to the doc about doing it responsibly / supervised. @deanokat - Your son made a good decision. I made my decision out of desperation and blindly (only taking the advice of my psychiatric providers). They said they were "worried" about me. Granted, they're just offering the best they think they have. Also, many of my PTSD issues affect my judgement so therefore the bad decision to take ECT. The irony is that now my decision making ability is even more compromised. I encourage anyone thinking about it to do the research and if they're not capable then ask a loved one or friend. Either way, anyone considering this treatment should make a fully informed decision. As a side note, my wife drove me to 2 treatments and then someone else had to. She couldn't take seeing me in the state that I was in after coming out of it. A person who has just received ECT is unspeakably pitiful - especially someone viewed a strong leader/husband/dad. For any who are interested, here's where I found some good info on ECT. http://www.ectresources.org/ I appreciate all the encouragement. I will not drink today.