Four years ago my husband was diagnosed with Stage IV lung cancer. It is now in his brain and spinal column and I am his sole caregiver along with hospice coming to the house. I suffer from IBS and what is probably Crohn's disease. Along the way, I have had to rush my husband to the hospital at a moment's notice as well as going to numerous chemo and radiation treatments with him. A friend told me that oxycodone used to be used for bad intestines. And by bad intestines, I can get diarrhea from just drinking water. In two of the situations where I had to get him to the hospital, I didn't make it before having to stop by the side of the road to go to the bathroom. Sorry if this is icky sounding. So, I have been taking up to forty mg of oxycodone a day. And during this time, I have had normal intestines for the first time in my life. I don't live with the anxiety of unexpected intestinal accidents. It has freed me up to be able to care for my husband. I do want to stop taking them for all the reasons that you can imagine. I can't go to the doctor and be honest... I will be reported in the state where I live I've been told. I've tried cutting down and stopping but I get the most excruciating pains in my legs. My legs feel like they are cramped beyond belief. I also find myself sneezing quite a bit. These only happen when I try to stop. I have had terrible bouts of diarrhea when trying to stop them but I know that is a part of the withdrawal so I don't stress about that. I want to go to a gastro-intestinal doctor once I am totally stopped taking the Oxycodone. Thank you if you've read all of this. I don't even know if 30 to 40 mg a day is considered excessive. And if it is within the range of being able to taper off and then quit without having other complications other than what I have described above. My husband is dying and so many complex issues exist in my life. I want to stop taking them. I just feel so "normal" when I take them... physically and mentally. I know if I go to the doctor and tell him that these are the ONLY meds that have EVER essentially cured my irritable bowel, he is not going to prescribe them unfortunately. I'm seventy years old and other than cigarettes, this is the only possible addiction I've faced in my life.