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Complex reasons for oxycodone use. Don't know where to turn

Discussion in 'Prescription Drugs' started by Reah Darr, Jul 5, 2018.

  1. Reah Darr

    Reah Darr Active Contributor

    Good evening. I check this thread each evening before I go to bed now. You are correct; I was taking 10 mg four times a day.

    I was so tired of feeling like everything in my life was out of my control when I first logged in and posted. The suggestion to taper down gradually made sense to me. So, two days ago, I started a calendar page on my computer which would make no sense to anyone looking at it. Each time I take the oxy, I put the number of mgs as well as the time I took it. Yesterday, instead of taking 10 mg when I first wake up, I cut the tablet in half and stretched that pill out. By the end of the day, I am taking 5 mg less. This was a big accomplishment for me because now I could look and see when I took it and not sit and wonder how much or how many I took. It's there in black and white on my computer.

    Later this morning, I am calling the addiction specialist that was in the list above. He is a psychiatrist and the reviews from patients were all very positive. From the reading I've done, I feel like I can do this method. With 5mg less, I haven't had the really bad leg pains. But I do want to have a doctor make sure that I am not putting myself into a health danger or crisis. I really appreciate this website and I really appreciate everyone's kindness and help.

    I know that the ease of availability of oxycodone will be a challenge to stay away from. But I am not going to even think about that part of all of this. I am concentrating on working on tapering down until I am free from taking them and then devise a way that access is limited or not at all within an arm's reach.
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  2. Dominica

    Dominica Recovery Advocate @ Moving Beyond Codependency Community Listener

    @Reah Darr hey there. glad you are here! i'm not sure about this topic, as I just don't have experience here... glad to hear you're going to see a specialist... i really think that will be valuable to you!!

    and just know we're here for you to support you however we can... you're NOT alone. and, we care.

    i know you're under so much right now with your husband's condition, and your addiction... take it one hour at a time if you must....

    sending you light, love, and big hug today!
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  3. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @Reah Darr... Happy to hear that you haven't had the really bad leg pains with 5 mg less. That's good news. Definitely call the addiction specialist today and make an appointment. I think it's always best to be under a doctor's supervision while tapering off meds. Better safe than sorry.

    Let us know how you're doing later today, okay? We're here for you, my friend.
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  4. Josh111187

    Josh111187 Community Champion

    Hi, sorry I've had to be gone for a while but im back checking this site daily and saw how worried you were about having dug yourself into a whole you couldn't get out of.
    In fact just the opposite, be encouraged that you realized the dangerous addiction that you were heading for.
    Just to put some personal perspective on 40mgs., I was taking around 140mgs before I changed up and went to harder drugs because it was cheaper.
    40mgs is no joke at all it's miserable to come off of to quickly but with a proper taper and doctors care you have this beat all day long. Don't worry, .that's what addiction wants you to do, it wants to make you dought your own strength to overcome in all areas. Addiction will take everything you have.
    But not for you because you caught it early and are going to do what's neccesnec to get over the pills. And with minimal discomfort also. God bless.
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  5. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    im happy to hear you started a calender and can now see the dose as it decreases,i agree check with a dr but i know from experience the only way to break free is to start somewhere and 5mg less is a step in the correct direction and im also glad you didnt have leg pains.If you do the taper as i suggested it should work out very well but also drink plenty of water to keep your organs constantly flushing toxins out,the flush is just as important as the cut in dose and talk with your dr about taking a multivitamin while doing this because as you taper your body will burn up minerals faster trying to maintain functionability.Stay Strong and God Bless.You got this and reachout and keep us posted.Take Care
  6. Reah Darr

    Reah Darr Active Contributor

    Hello all. I feel like a 'super sleuth' when I log in here. For about a year I was afraid to join any of the groups because I didn't want to leave cookies or any history. That's how afraid I was to even post anywhere. I've been taking the oxy's for just over four years and reached what I thought was a 'panic amount' about a year ago. So I finally figured out how to open an 'in private' screen on my computer and set up an email account that is only used for this forum.

    I write this first because maybe there is someone out there reading this who is afraid to post. I'm not afraid any longer and I really appreciate the help I've received here. For the first time in four years I actually have hope that I can wean myself from them.

    As I said, I started a calendar on my computer and when I take one of the pills, I write it on the calendar. What I came to realize was that I was taking more than 40 mgs on some days before I started documenting how many I was taking.

    Now, with the calendar, and placing the three tablets out in the morning, I have been able to limit myself to 30 mg a day for six days now. Come Saturday, I will reduce the amount to 25 mg a day. I am fearful at how I will do. Part of my problem is that oxycodone is freely available to me in large amounts right now. But that is what started to really scare me... feel a twinge and grab a pill. By setting the day's dosage out so that I can see it, I can avoid the bottle of pills and not panic.

    This is how I am working on all of this. As I said above I come here to read the forum each evening for a reminder and for a dose of "you can do this" feeling.

    Thank you for giving me the opportunity to write about this freely. I am home on my own with my husband most days and don't get to really talk to anyone. I can't talk about this hole I was digging to anyone and have to do it on my own. I am grateful that I can write it out here.
  7. Dominica

    Dominica Recovery Advocate @ Moving Beyond Codependency Community Listener

    Proud of you for your commitment to recovery... you are doing this! and, we're here to support you however we can!
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  8. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    We're happy to be of help, my friend. Even if you have to do it secretly, I'm sure sharing here is cathartic for you. And that's one of the reasons we're here.

    Keep working hard at bettering yourself. And know that you CAN do this. I know you can. We're all behind you 100 percent!

    Happy Friday! I hope you have a great day and an even better weekend!
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  9. Reah Darr

    Reah Darr Active Contributor

    This is the second day that I have taken 5 mg less than last week. This is hard. I can feel the effects of it.
  10. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    I am very proud of you and you are correct it is not easy but it is a safe way to eliminate the drug withoutMaximum suffering.Though tappering is tough,Cold turkey could be deadly and agonizing on a much worse scale so i encourage you to Stay Strong you have already nearly cut your dose in half so you are doing fantastic.Stay Strong you've got this.God Bless and Take Care
  11. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    I'm proud of you, too, @Reah Darr! @True concern is right: It's not easy, but it's the safest and most comfortable way. Please know that you're doing a wonderful thing for yourself. And even though it's difficult, it will be INCREDIBLY worth it.

    Keep going, my friend. We are all behind you 100 percent. Come and lean on us whenever you need to, okay?

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  12. Dominica

    Dominica Recovery Advocate @ Moving Beyond Codependency Community Listener

    @Reah Darr this is wonderful! so proud of you!! :) keep it up!
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  13. Reah Darr

    Reah Darr Active Contributor

    Writing to keep myself motivated. Completed another day successfully. It wasn't easy but I did it. Even at just 5 mg less this week, I am experiencing side effects. Sneezing, bad guts (which I knew would happen) as well as a chilled feeling. However I don't have the horrible leg pains like what occurred previously when I tried cold turkey. Other than those things, I think I'm doing OK for today.
  14. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    @Reah Darr You are doing this and i for one am sooo happy for you.Each time you drop the dose,each day you stay committed to breaking free your addiction gets weaker and now it is it that fears you versus you fearing it.The "Cold Sweats"suck for sure but you know very well that is minimal suffering compared to what it could be,so stay focused,stay committed,Stay Strong you are almost half way there and i commend your courage and strength.You are about 1 month from being totally free of this nightmare and that is a fight worth fighting.I'm proud of you.Stay Strong and God Bless Take Care
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  15. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    It's so great that you have another day under your belt, @Reah Darr! I'm super proud of you! As far as the "bad guts," you may want to look into taking a probiotic. They can really help regulate your gut and stomach/digestive functions.

    One day at a time, my friend. You got this. And we're all behind you 100 percent. Reach out and lean on us for support anytime you need to.
  16. lonewolves

    lonewolves Community Champion

    This thread might give you some comfort, @Shrei. Sending positive vibes your way.
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  17. Shrei

    Shrei Member

    I’m just now going to get off
    Norco I take 5 a day.
    I’m 67 years old have been
    On them for 5 years.
    How did you start .
    I have to do this by my self.
    Thank you
  18. True concern

    True concern Moderator

    @Shrei Ok so the safest way and most comfortable way is to cut out 5 mg's a week,i assume your taking 5 (10)mg Norco's a day so though im no dr i have vast experience in opiate detox.I would eliminate 5 mg's a week,so basically your last pill before bed break it in half,do this for a week at a time and on week 2 eliminate another 5mgs.You will be "Mildly" uncomfortable however it will drastically reduce the detox agony and at your age it will prevent your organs from going through extreme stress.Also try to take a multi vitamin as it will keep your blood flowing with vital minerals and nutrients helping you to maintain some of the strength you lose as you detox.Im so sorry to hear about your husband i will keep you both in my prayers.Stay Strong and God Bless the Both of you.Please reachout and keep us posted and we willdo our best to reach back and lend advice and encouragement along the way.Stay Strong you got this
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  19. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    I'm proud of you for making the decision to get off the Norco, @Shrei. You're taking a big step toward improving your life. Have you considered seeing an addiction specialist to help you with the weaning process? Whichever route you choose to get off the pills, I wish you the best of luck. Please know that we're here to help, support, and encourage you. You can consider us part of your support network, for sure.

    Sending you love, light, and healing energy. Tons of it.
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  20. Shrei

    Shrei Member

    Thank thank you for the help.
    I’m going to get through this.
    I’m starting today.
    I will post how I do.
    Thanks again