Hey, I was thinking about an issue that I'm having but thought it belonged in a different thread, so here it is... As anyone who has read my posts know that I have struggled big time with addiction so I won't go into that again. But the problem with wanting to take more than needed of my prescription pills and was running out early still nags at me. When I first found this site I was in withdrawal so bad because of this that I ended up in the Dr's office having a seizure, so I know exactly how terrible that was and there's no cravings strong enough to get me to repeat that. Last night I was going to take my night dose of valium down another 2.5mgs btw, and noticed that I was running low. Immediately upon realizing that I dumped the bottle in my hand and was ready to take them all and get one last high. Walking to the table to get my water I realized what I had done, it wasn't really a contious decision. It was just something that I did impulsively. Having been there and done that I would never take all my meds up and have to deal w/consequences again. So I put all but one dose back in the bottle thank God. Anyone else who is getting completely clean experienced second nature like impulsive bad behavior? Is this just me? I wonder about this because at this point I'm enjoying being sober so what's going on?