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Day 21...still sober, but having a rough day

Discussion in 'Sobriety Tips and Inspiration' started by WannaBfree, Apr 26, 2016.

  1. WannaBfree

    WannaBfree Active Contributor

    Seems like any turmoil or imbalance in the peaceful life I try to lead will cause me to CRAVE a drink. I had a long, drawn out, and emotional argument with my 21 year old daughter. What about really doesn't matter. It's how I feel afterwards. Washed out and drained. Depressed. When I get into an argument or angry, I think there is some kind of "chemical dump" that happens. No matter what I do, the depression and anxiety stays with me. I know I could pound a couple shots, and it would go away immediately. I jumped on here to read some past noites of encouragement and remains myself of how far I came. I have to remember to be patient because the feeeling WILL go away on it's own without any help. I prayed and asked God to remove the feelings, as well as the desire to drink. I'm now going to go powerwash my deck. I'll stay busy, and I'll be okay. This is the first time since I stopped drinking on April 5th that I have had a strong desire to drink. I will make it through. My family would be so disappointed, and I would feel so guilty. It's not worth it. I can look forward to tomorrow morning and think about that hangover that I would SURELY wake up with. Oh, I would overdo it. Probably puke with no tolerance. LOL Soooooo......the answer is and will stay NO! I will check back on here later to see responses. Thanks for the love <3
  2. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    I'm so proud of the progress you've made, @WannaBfree. And you're right: the feeling WILL go away. And the longer you are sober, the cravings will diminish, too. Getting and staying sober isn't easy, but anything worth having is worth working hard for. And this is most definitely one of those things. So keep working hard and moving forward. You are an inspiration. Congrats on your 21 days! Remember: We're here for you anytime you need help or support, or just want/need to vent.

    Hugs and sober vibes.
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  3. WannaBfree

    WannaBfree Active Contributor

    @deanokat Thank you for your encouragement. Tomorrow will be a better day. I refuse to let the time I have go to waste :)
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  4. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    That's a great attitude, @WannaBfree. I hope tomorrow (which is actually today) is indeed better for you. One day at a time, right? :)
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  5. WannaBfree

    WannaBfree Active Contributor

    Today was a little better, and tomorrow will be even better than that! I made it through, and the worst has passed for now.
  6. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    The days will get better, for sure. Keep doing what you're doing, @WannaBfree. I'm super proud of you! :)
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  7. WannaBfree

    WannaBfree Active Contributor

    Thank you so much. This forum has been a great thing for me. It's like journal, in some ways, but I'm able to get words of encouragement that can keep me going. You guys are great :)
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  8. Donnchadh

    Donnchadh Active Contributor

  9. Donnchadh

    Donnchadh Active Contributor

    Hey I just read your post well done to give yourself a path on the back you deserve it. It's a bumpy ride in the early stages of recovery but hang on to what you've got it will get better that's for sure provided you do a few things like I did it may help you to find someone who you can trust to listen you're more likely to find such a person in AA and no two dont go for the first drink if you do it'll only make life 10 times worse why throw away what you've already achieved remember Talk about your problems and go easy on yourself LOL good luck and God bless xx
  10. Backtohim

    Backtohim Member

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  11. Backtohim

    Backtohim Member

    I'm so new to this, I stop for 8/12, maybe a year and half and I go back. I fall. Fall aggressively. Worse is I picked up other vices, just no good. Thanks for sharing and will feed off y'all's good vibes
  12. Donnchadh

    Donnchadh Active Contributor

  13. Donnchadh

    Donnchadh Active Contributor

    Hey we are all so new to this living sober because every day is a new day some will be good some will be bad or hard but remember every day clean and sober is ultimately a good day.and yes it was the same for me every slip or fall was worse than the last that's how this disease is remember your dealing with alcohol cunning powerful and baffling as it states in the Big Book of Alcoholic Anonymous fair play to you you've got a brilliant attitude. I get knocked down but I get up again there ain't nothing going to keep me down as the song goes.You will beat this no problem to you.Loads of hugs to you and keep with it lol
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  14. Rsw

    Rsw Member