This is the third day of me sticking to the prescribed dosage of Norco and Clonazapam (mainly Norco though). The reason I feel the urge to take “one extra pill” is usually emotional. I am severely disabled, my only caregivers are either ill or struggling with an addiction, and I lost my husband-to-be to cancer three years ago, which left me with PTSD. The OD this summer sorta amplified the PTSD symptoms, to the point where I was afraid of leaving my own apartment. I am a pretty vivacious person, but I began to be afraid of socializing, talking to people, going out. There are days when I’m feeling so trapped and hounded that resorting to an extra pill feels like the lesser evil. Except it isn’t. I know it isn’t. But I know that “one more pill” only opens the floodgates and I’ll feel compelled to take one tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow, and the day after, till it’s too late and my self-hatred kills whatever willpower I had in the beginning of my monthly pill cycle. It’s never going to be ‘just’ one extra pill and it has never been. I need to change my faulty patterns of thinking. Any advice in terms of psychological addiction, like self-medicating against feeling absolutely trapped? I really want to stay strong about this. If not for me, then for my loved ones.