When we truly want to end our own lives the biggest questions began to be answered. Being in a place where you do not want to live provides a different lens to look out on life. Overcoming an addiction is truly work! The only way to understand our own disposition it to acknowledge our openness to understanding. For some, the process will be easy, due to the fact they always reflect on their well being. However, for others, they do not care to self evaluate. Of course, it takes work and drive to want to alter your disposition, but it can pay off in the long run. Has any one else felt like life did not matter?