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Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by crc3thebest, Nov 25, 2015.

  1. crc3thebest

    crc3thebest Community Champion

    Great knowledge! The way we see the battle of overcoming can be seen as a beautiful, positive experience. This helps when one feels down about the battle and just wants to give up. Thank you for your insight!
  2. crc3thebest

    crc3thebest Community Champion

    I truly love your wisdom! What a beautiful display of knowledge!
  3. crc3thebest

    crc3thebest Community Champion

    Happiness is a choice, not a state of being. Once I figured that out, my life began to get better and better.
  4. MyDigitalpoint

    MyDigitalpoint Community Champion

    Before falling in alcohol addiction, I felt once that life was not worth having my parents not understanding me, and no friends or other family members to whom look at. When I reached that point, I remember to have been going down the street quarreling with my mother and tired to live (I was 21), I got off the sidewalk and began to walk behind her, but down a fast lane with heavy traffic, wanting to have one of those cars coming from my back taking charge of my existence.

    And nothing happen! I understood then that it was not my time to depart, but live my life without wanting to be understood.

    Eventually I started my road to addiction and the triggering factors made me think of suicide, question to myself if it was an act of bravery or cowardly, because to take one's life is necessary to have the necessary guts. Even though, these were only reflections, never tried to kill myself.

    I could only understood that life is worth to live as it comes (or as we make it) after hitting rock bottom and having survived when I'm absolutely sure that I was about to pass away. If I had the chance to remain on planet Earth, it has to be for something, no matter how hard living could be.
  5. L_B

    L_B Community Champion

    I struggle with depression so I have been down that road many times. I have really thought about ending it all. I felt I had no way out and that they only way to be free of pain was to end it. I still struggle today with what a purpose in life it. I wonder if my life really matters or who would actually miss me if I was gone. I love my grand children to pieces so I know I could never to that to them. They have been my inspiration to keep fighting no matter how bad life gets.
  6. xTinx

    xTinx Community Champion

    Thank you! We often get caught up in the details, failing to see the bigger picture in the process. I realize if we think big, then indeed it's more than possible for us to do big things.
  7. serenity

    serenity Community Champion

    Suicidal thoughts can happen to anyone and I did have them too when I was younger. But as I got older, I realized that problems are God's way of testing us during our lifetime, and I have come to believe that the Lord will not give us trials that He does not think that we can face, so now I view problems as challenges that's meant to be overcome.
  8. Juanpeace

    Juanpeace Active Contributor

    "All Life is Precious"- a quote from Morgan a character in the Walking Dead TV series. A person so depressed may find no purpose in living he might want to end it all- to escape, abandon ship. everybody experince being in the bottom of a hole at a point in our life. we hit rock bottom and it is dark and gloomy. Morning comes and we look up we see the hole we fell through and it is bright-- sunlight is visble. The decision is up to you stay in the hole or try to find a way up into a new day. Decide to live because life is precious.
  9. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    I once felt like life didn't matter and wanted to end it all, that was a couple years ago... I had to battle with depression after battling my biggest addiction, specially after getting a really scary diagnosis that made me feel as if my entire life was crumbling! I'm in a difficult situation right now... not know what is going on this year...

    But I am trying not to let that ruin my days :) I'd lie if I said I'm not scared of what the future will bring this and the next year, but sometimes it's better not to think of it. ANYTHING could happen, but I hope I don't relapse and end up overdosing... That is why I am trying to live one day at a time.
  10. deanokat

    deanokat DrugAbuse.com Community Organizer Community Listener

    @Tremmie... I'm sorry you're in a difficult situation right now. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers, my friend. And I'm sending you positive, healthy, healing, sober vibes. Be brave and keep the faith, okay? And know that we're here if you need us. Anytime.

    Peace and hugs.
  11. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    Thank you, Dean! I am really grateful for that, having someone to talk to in a moment of need like this is golden! I am feeling better today :) I had a couple drinks yesterday, but no worries, it was just a couple drinks and nothing else. I didn't drink today and don't plan to drink tomorrow or anytime soon :) I didn't enjoy drinking at all yesterday, it was more like a compulsion... I really didn't want to, but I was feeling so down I did it. Won't do it again!
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  12. Jasmine2015

    Jasmine2015 Community Champion

    I have never experienced suicidal thoughts so I don't know how helpful I will be in this post. What I have experienced is that " misery loves it's own company". Sometimes I just have to stay away from certain people because they are draining me emotional wise. I don't expect every single person to always understand what I go through but just being there when I need you is much better.