Sobriety generally means that an individual has experienced such an array of storms and chaos that they are wise. It makes us practical and refines our coping mechanisms. However, it is different for each of us. Thus, I would be interested in reading everyone's own, personal interpretation with regard to the word "Recovery". What is Recovery? What does Recovery mean to you? If I had to stand in front of a room and convey to the crowd what "recovery" meant to me I would define it like this: Recovery is a voyage within a broader excursion. To undergo this voyage one must resolve to accept the notion of challenges, refuse to surrender when faced with defeat and must have a strong desire to obtain something that they could not have without embarking on this voyage. My recovery made me come face to face with the notion and proposal of "change". Staying the course, for myself, would have only given me few outcomes: prison, death or complete depravity. Recovery was only possible when I woke up every morning, nauseous of my present self, lacking the capacity to rationalize or engage unless the necessity of my addiction had been quenched. Until I was sick of myself, recovery was only a charade that I wore, to manipulate and create as a diversion. If I could maintain the appearance of being "clean" or striving toward sobriety, I could selfishly trap loved ones who wanted no part in enabling me. Exhaustion had to set in and I had to be brought to total hopelessness. Looking back, I know that taking that voyage refined the man that I am today. I am a better person, a little bit smarter, a lot stronger and with a future full of promise - all due to that decision - to want to live life. When the pains of staying the same are more than the pains of change.....then and only then.....can one embark on the voyage of "Recovery".