How are you disciplining yourself? This is really hard because whom you are fighting is yourself, meaning you are not one with yourself. It's the battle between your id and your superego, and what you want here to win is your superego, and you just simply don't want your ego to mediate and just the two to reach a midpoint. What you want then here to happen is just to totally defeat your id, your pleasure. But how to do it? I always end up depressed each day, because I'm just too weak that I always give in to my id. And because of my depression, there's all more reason to yield to my pleasure, which is even more heartbreaking. Help!