So if it was your go to drug, then you chased the other stuff and yeah I know you are lucky to be alive given you're cold turkey detox. What I'm trying to get at I guess does alcohol give some that euphoria like heroin? Because I've been in treatment with plenty of people who say if they could have only one high ever again it would be from alcohol. This truly baffles me as even though I got a little buzz at first the ONLY reason I kept drinking was to not get sick. I do not understand why people like alcohol. Is this just unique to me or having experience with both does it give you a euphoria?