Hi there! I'm so sorry to hear that you're feeling this way. It's hard to break out of the cycle of drug use, especially when it feels like there's no other way out. It sounds like you've really had enough, and you're ready to make a change. That's amazing! I would suggest reaching out to a rehab center for a long term residential drug treatment. They can provide the resources and support you need to get clean and stay clean. I wish you the best of luck on your journey! I hope you can find the strength to keep moving forward and turn your life around. You deserve it!