When can I stop causing pain and agony to myself? At many points, I feel like I am dead, nothing seems to excite me. When will I ever live? The addiction reels me to life, while stopping feels like dying. Is there any other way? Most of the time, I feel as if it is time to end this! You know, I try so hard to stop, but I just don't see another way. I just fell in love with the wrong thing in life and can not move on in life. When can there be change in my way? Maybe, it is time to end this. My tears don't seem to heal the pain I endore on a daily basis. If there was only a better alternatice in life. My friends and family also judge me and talk about me to everyone. When I am around them, I feel like Jesus before the Romans. I just wish there was another way!