As a disclaimer, I judge, but I don’t condemn, because I believe, that “all belief is valid”, unless the belief is injurious mentally and/or physically forced on me or those that can’t defend themselves. It's a nice day today, that's a judgement or I stereotype, which I believe all humans do, and this is also judgement. No one has right to judge me solely on my feelings, but as a male child, I was judged by being told that boys don’t dry. A song lyric “feelings have no rights or wrongs” for me is spiritual. It’s only when feelings are acted out behaviorally, that feelings can be judged by society, especially some fear based feelings. There’s a long list of different types of fear based feelings. My addiction has every thing to do with why I blocked feelings, especially feelings of dependency on ideas outside of myself, boy’s don’t cry is the most toxic. Ideas of duality which are a fear based dependency, e.g., “my addict (duality) is out to get me”, is victim blame based addiction. I’m 100% the addict, I don’t share my addiction with some ethereal mythology, including e.g. Deity (s) (Heaven), Devil, (Hell), etc. This FOR ME is “toxic group think” whether it’s 12 step faith based recovery groups or faith based religious groups. In essence, my recovery is an autonomous inside job, it’s an unsuspected inner resource. It’s unsuspected because it has always been inside me, it’s my spirit, I just failed to recognize, but my addiction lead me to it. Until I recovered, my unsuspected inner resource was stifled by allowing a faith based dictatorial religion to shame me by explaining my mortality using the manipulative after life i.e. Heaven (God) Hell (Devil). My recovery taught me not to block fearful feelings, I let all feelings flow, including shame. Instinctual fear is the natural human animal state, engendered by my survival instinct. Other animals experience survival instinctual fear, but as far as science knows, other animals are not aware of their mortality. Yet, many attempt to comprehend that which is incomprehensible (God, afterlife). If I could comprehend God, I’d be God. For 50 years I’ve hearing in some“group think” recovery groups, that ME “YOU” (we, us, ) can’t fix a broken brain, with a broken brain, therefore, ME, WE, YOU, had nothing to do with YOUR recovery / sobriety, "God did it all”. My thought has always been, “if God hands out sobriety, does God handout relapse? For me, as I have shared, relapse/addiction lead me to recovery, which was my delivery system into spiritual reality, and is the only reality.