How is it possible to freely walk back into the arms of the monster that has destroyed most of your life? I spent the whole night calling helplines and the such just to be sitting here in the same position, with no answers, and no real solution to this problem without some sort of outside intervention. How can I stop this insanity without blowing my cover or checking into a program. Don't have the time and I surly don't have the money. HELP !!!!!!!!