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Gambling and snorting cocaine ruining my life for last 10 years

Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by Kirky1988, Nov 30, 2019.

  1. Kirky1988

    Kirky1988 Member

    31 years old now and up until 21 I had never touched a drug in my life.

    I liked a drink and the occasional football bet at the weekend,

    At 21 I started working in sales all over the country doing long hours. After a christmas party I tried cocain for the 1st time,

    Few years on I set up my own business which took off really well, started earning a lot of money and working a lot of the hours and slowly the cocaine started being more frequent and gambling a little heavier, by the age of 28 the cocain was a daily thing around 1g a day and betting £50 a day roughly but keeping this a secret from my wife and family. I stopped the sniffing around 5pm and by the time I got home at 8pm no one knew any different,

    Then the gambling got out of control and I started staying out and using the cocaine to stay awake to stay up all night gambling chasing my losses.

    Over the next 6m I lost over 400 000 pounds all my cars my houses, my business and most importantly my family. When the wife found out she asked me to leave which I did.

    Over the next 12m i tried rebuild my life and prove to her i wanted my family and it was important but at the same time i was still gambling and sniffing in secret.

    Now on 31 and have got the family back and relocated areas for a fresh start

    Over ther last 6m i have gone back to old ways I'm sniffing almost every day, some days staying out for 3 and 4 nights I can sniff as much and 5 grams a day some days and back gambeling every penny I have, I have run up debts to pay for both habits and it's like I'm living 2 separate lifes

    I want more than anything to be the partner my wife deserves and the father my kids deserve but as much as i try i seem to always go back to my ways.

    I may do a week or 2 weeks but then I'm back to the drugs and gambling.

    I am so ashamed of my self and the person I have become. Border line suisidle at times.

    At the moment no one other than a few friend know how bad things are, my family think I'm back on track and have being for the last 12 to 18m,

    When I stay out for days I make out I'm working away but I could literally be around the corner from home in a hotel isolationg myself alone with the cocaine and my phone to gamble online .

    I just don't know what to do any more. As hard as I try I end up back in the same place
  2. DoxyMom

    DoxyMom Community Champion

    @Kirky1988 hello and welcome. Even though I'm an opiate addict I know how you feel. I too was living a lie. I wanted to die. I'm 8 months clean now. I would like to suggest you go to meetings. There are Gamblers Anonymous and Cocaine too or you could try SMART which deals with all sorts of addictions and has online meetings if you can't find any near you. Just stopping because you wanted your family back didn't work. You need some tools. You can always keep coming here for support. We are here for you.
  3. Pluto888

    Pluto888 Member

    Gambling is a serious issue. I was in a similar situation and I was not even aware of it. Everyone in my family was telling me to stop, but of course I did not listen. I was gambling all of my money away and when nothing was left I had realized what I had done. I tried stopping, but it did not really work. A friend told me that if I was already going to gamble I should not risk that much money. He found a website that has and offer of no deposit free bet. You can start betting with money they give you and it is a good way for me to stop spending my money.
    Last edited: Jun 10, 2020
  4. nieprophsono

    nieprophsono Member

    So sorry to read another gambling story, that is ruining another human life. I do hope that you are not ashamed of who you are, it's not the way to be. You deserve a good life and awesome people around you. Have you tried replacing your addiction?
  5. Sebasty1987

    Sebasty1987 Member

    Not sure if you can agree, but once you enter the wonderful world of gambling, your life experiences a drastic change. Of course, my family was not supportive of my decisions. Unfortunately, I did lose a lot of money, just because I wasn't listening to my friends.
    I tried to forget about my addiction, but then I understood why I was losing. The sites that I used, were with a minimum and they forced me to play with a lot of money. The best choice for me was to search the internet for this แทงบอล. I finally understood that gambling can be easy and safe, for my mental health and money.
    Last edited: Apr 1, 2021
  6. CharlesClark

    CharlesClark Member

    I am a little bit younger than you, but I also tried narcotics. I like gambling, however. I still gamble. Many people have the impression that if someone is gambling, that means that he is using drugs, which is not true. I know that a lot of people in casinos consume narcotics, but not all. For example, I rarely go to real casinos because I usually play in an online casino. Still, the security is good in real casinos and watches players, so it's difficult to do something illegal.
    Last edited: Oct 24, 2021