I was headed for 5 months clean time off of Heroin and other substances. I was doing really good. My life was changing for the better. I was in a relationship with a really amazing woman. Bam she dumped me, didnt see that coming. I didnt relapse then, that was about 2-3 wks ago. But i went to the Dentist and had to have my molars cut out. They were impacted. And i abused the Pain meds. Thats a relapse, where i come from. I went to a meeting and got a start over token. Lasted two days, i used again today. Im not going to let my disease kill me. Deep down i think it was the failed relationship trip me up. Im still trippin over it. Why- because there is no explanation for the break-up. We never argued, nothing bad between us. So much good and i thought Love between us-guess not. How does a woman wake up and say i love you but im not in Love with you. Huh/ I guess God will show me the answer when hes ready. I really need feedback.