Meth is a horrible drug. I've been addicted for 30 yrs. Yes,I said 30 years. I'm smoking it now as I write this. I'm a 45 yr old Grandmother and just can't stop. I'm hoping to find other people to talk to about my every day struggle. I cry every night because I wish I could wake up a normal clean person, but I know I won't because I must smoke in order to start my day. I've said it before but I feel I'm a functioning addict. I don't want to be that person anymore. I mean really, who wants a Grandma on meth? I would be embarrassed. God I wish I could quit.