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Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by knitmehere, Sep 28, 2015.

  1. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @knitmehere... Just wondering how you're doing. If you get a chance, check in and let us know.
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  2. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    @deanokat Sorry, it's been a busy couple of weeks, which is a good thing. I've been on the go a lot and haven't had the time to relapse, even if I wanted to. Thankfully, I don't. I still think about it a lot, but I've found other things to occupy my time, and those things make me much happier.

    I'm actually in the process of trying to find a full time job. The search isn't going too well at the moment, but just getting out and looking is taking up enough of my time to make it worth it.
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  3. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Great to hear from you, @knitmehere, and I'm glad you are still on the road to recovery!

    It's great that you've found other things to make you happy. I wish you nothing but the best of luck in your job search!

    It's nice to have you here as part of the community! :)
  4. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    @deanokat Thank you! I like being here and having the support of other people who have been there, as well as being support for them as well. It really helps.
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  5. 6up

    6up Community Champion

    Never give up. You are on the right track to quitting taking drugs. Remain focused so that you can attend to other projects. Be prayerful and I know God will answer your prayers. Try to avoid friends who want to get you back into taking drugs. Never attend parties where you will be tempted to take drugs and drink.
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  6. zaerine

    zaerine Community Champion

    Better to have motivation than temptation to remain clean for life if possible. Sorry but I think those friends who are convincing you to use are should be avoided. Find or stick to those who will help you be a better person instead. :)
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  7. Jorge Solis

    Jorge Solis Active Contributor

    Hello everyone! My name is Jorge Solis. I think this is normal. Yet, I also think that in order for you to choose the path of recovery you will have to admit that you have a problem and realize that you want to seek help. Some people admit they have a problem but are okay with it. You have to take the next step and seek help!
  8. mooray

    mooray Active Contributor

    The power of the mind: If you say you can or can't, you are right. Just believe.
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  9. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    @Jorge Solis I don't exactly know what you mean by "seeking help". If you're referring to "professional help" in terms of rehab and things like that, I've had it and it doesn't do any good for some people (myself included). I know that I have a problem, but it's on me to fix it.
  10. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    I do want to update a little bit. I've been trying to keep busy to keep my mind off of it, but being at home all of the time was killing my motivation.

    I went to an open interview last Wednesday, and I got a call Thursday morning saying that I was hired. I also got my drivers license on Thursday.

    Today was my second day of work and I absolutely love it. The people I work with are wonderful and it's just a great environment.

    I don't even think about my addiction while I'm there, and I normally have so much to do when I get home that I still don't think about it then either.
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  11. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @knitmehere... Thanks for the update. It sounds like things are going really well for you. Having a job you love is certainly a wonderful thing. It can make such a huge difference in our day-to-day lives. I'm so happy for you!

    Keep doing the next right thing, my friend. I'm so glad you're a part of this community! :)
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  12. stariie

    stariie Community Champion

    Yes! Make your money doll. Glad to read that you got a job that you really like. Some days are better than others, but that's life; you made it through a storm and now here's the sunshine:).
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  13. thekennie

    thekennie Member

    You are strong, you realize that you have a problem and that's a lot further then most addictions today. Friends can be a blessing or pure trouble but then again you never want to feel alone. You can do this, it just takes one day at a time, baby steps. I hate to say but like most addictions, it's always going to be there but you know it's going to be okay. Stay Strong my friend <3
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  14. kgord

    kgord Community Champion

    Do better for your child than you had it yourself knitme. I think you want to do the right thing, and it is fantastic that you have been able to go so far. Just keep it up, you can get the options you need.
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  15. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    Thanks, everyone. The amount of encouragement and motivation that I get from you guys may not seem like a whole lot from your end, but its everything to me.
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  16. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    That's what we're here for, @knitmehere. :)
  17. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    @deanokat I'm trying my best to be able to be around and give other people that same type of encouragement. I've just been working wayyyy too much lately!
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  18. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @knitmehere... Every little bit of encouragement you can give others helps! :)
  19. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    @deanokat That's what I've noticed! I've actually been trying to set aside a certain amount of hours every week to just sit down and try to give other people advice based on the things that I've been through. It's been doing wonders for my own recovery.
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  20. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    I haven't updated lately, or been online at all, and I'm sure that a few of you noticed that's not exactly like me since I've joined this group.

    There have been a lot of things going on in my life over the past couple of months, but the main one I would like to point to is that I'm pregnant. So, no, I haven't relapsed. Quite the opposite, really.

    I have been so sick with morning sickness that I can't even get out of bed most days, and my motivation for everything is very low. I quit my job for some selfish reasons, and I'm hoping that after the morning sickness goes away that I will find another.

    Until then, I've been doing a lot of knitting and selling those items online more than I normally do to try to keep a steady flow of money for my family.