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Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by knitmehere, Sep 28, 2015.

  1. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @knitmehere... So nice to hear from you. And congratulations on your pregnancy!! What a wonderful thing!

    FWIW, I don't think quitting your job is selfish. Not at all. Taking care of yourself is not's essential. :)

    I assumed you were a knitter from your user name. My wife is a knitaholic. If you're on Ravelry (what I like to call "Facebook for Knitters"), look her up. Her user name there is katinkat.

    I hope your morning sickness eases soon. Sending you and your baby a big virtual hug. :)
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  2. Winterybella

    Winterybella Community Champion

    It's wonderful to hear you are doing well except for the morning sickness. I hope you get pass that soon. I am also delighted when I know how my friends here are progressing and I want to thank you for your update. Thrilled to hear you've not had a relapse and even though you gave up your job, you're resourceful enough to find a source of income using your talent. Best wishes to you and things will get better with the pregnancy.
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  3. Tremmie

    Tremmie Community Champion

    How are things going with your pregnancy and that morning sickness? I hope you are feeling better, dealing with morning sickness is never a pleasant thing, I truly hope your is gone soon and you don't have to deal with it anymore. Best of luck with everything!
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  4. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    It has gotten better, thankfully. Now I'm just pregnant and bored and tired all of the time. I need a new job lol
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  5. kgord

    kgord Community Champion

    I hope you are staying strong Knit. I guess you have to use the AA model and take it one day at a time. Remember you have the power, it is within you to live the life you want to live, and not let the past define you. I hope you are doing well!
  6. stariie

    stariie Community Champion

    Morning sickness, I remember it well.
    It can be really hard to quit a job and have to stay at home, even during such a blessed event as a pregnancy, but I'm glad that you are knitting and selling items online. I want to learn to knit and crochet (I think I wrote that to you already in another thread here, so my bad if I'm repeating myself:oops::)).

    You know that you'll be able to get another job when you are feeling up to it:). Hope all continues to be well with you:) and the baby:).
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  7. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    Thank you! Since I wasn't online for what seemed like forever, I lost our conversation in that thread. I really think you should take up knitting or crocheting. Youtube would be your best friend for learning.

    My boyfriend actually just moved in recently, and neither of us is actually working, so we've been spending 24/7 in the same house together and it's putting a lot of strain on our relationship.
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  8. angel_lou

    angel_lou Active Contributor

    You really should choose your friends more carefully. They have done you no favours. Who would keep asking 5 times when the answers been NO. Best of luck and please dont fall back into addiction, its just not worth it.
  9. serenity

    serenity Community Champion

    Well it's good to know that you are now clean for a couple of months already, and I hope it does stay that way. Whenever you feel like you are having some cravings then just think of the welfare of your kid, I'm sure that would be a very good deterrent.
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  10. greybird29

    greybird29 Active Contributor

    Congratulations on your pregnancy best wishes your morning sickness has passed and you are doing well and found a job. Even if you get along great spending 24/7 with any one person can be a trying experience in many ways. If you or your boyfriend is not working how are y’all supporting yourselves and how on earth will you support and provide for your child? How are your cocaine cravings, hopefully having a precious child growing inside you and the health and welfare of that child and yourself you can avoid all controlled substances.
    Best wishes with your pregnancy and your journey through life. One thing is for sure you WILL come into some money in the next three weeks IF YOU get a JOB this week :)
  11. stariie

    stariie Community Champion

    Sorry for the late reply, my laptop has been acting up lately, and is now in full-blown needs-to-be-taken-to-the-shop mode. These days I can only get on a computer every(ever)-so-often.

    I totally agree with you about me taking up knitting and crocheting, but I seem to fall into that age old mindset trap where I berate myself for not starting earlier. You know, it goes something like this: "I've been talking about learning to crochet since (fill in whatever date), it's too late to start now. I should have started earlier."
    Then, another month passes, which turns into two more months, then three more, next thing you know, it's another year later, which makes me beat myself up even more. Vicious cycle.o_O

    How nice that your boyfriend moved in recently, but too bad it is putting strain on your relationship:(.
    Is this someone you are seriously considering marrying?... I'm so nosey:oops:, it's my never-ending MamaBear at work.
    Perhaps (hopefully) the strain will subside a bit when he gets some type of employment and is outside of the house for a few hours a day.
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  12. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    I should have worded the job thing differently. I work from home, and he was searching for a job. Well... I was searching for a job for him.

    He started working on Sunday and it's going well for the moment. We'll see how that goes.

    As for my cravings, they are gone.
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  13. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    It's never too late to start something new! Heck, I'd teach you if we were actually somewhere near each other. Lol.

    Yes, he's definitely someone who I had decided to spend my life with. We haven't been together a long time, just about a year and a half, but we've gotten through a lot together. He just started working the other day, and I feel much better on the days that he's not constantly next to me, but we do still have a lot of things to work out because him working has caused a whole new group of problems for us.
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  14. greybird29

    greybird29 Active Contributor

    It is great that you are able to work from home I do wish I could; especially during the snow season. It is fabulous that your cravings are gone. Best wishes that the job works out well for your boyfriend and the two of you can establish a loving happy home for you and your growing family. When is the baby due; are you getting excited?
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  15. queend17

    queend17 Active Contributor

    Come on girl, you've fought it once, so you can fight it again, and you can keep fighting no matter how long it takes! Don't go back down that hole, cause every time you do, you'll end up regretting it and it'll make you wanna crawl back down into that hole again, please don't end up in that endless cycle of depression and drug abuse... It's too easy to fall into...
  16. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    @greybird29 I currently have a due date of July 28th, but I have an ultrasound on Tuesday to confirm it.
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  17. greybird29

    greybird29 Active Contributor

    Hey Knitmehere great to hear from you! July can be a hot, sticky month to be nine months pregnant; I do hope you have air conditioning LOL. My oldest daughter is also pregnant she is due to have a baby boy mid June. This will be my first Grandson and I am exceedingly excited. She lives in Hawaii it is mighty hot there and she does not have central air. I hope to go there after the baby is born sadly my finances may prevent that from happening.

    When are you going to have a baby shower? A friend of my daughter just had virtual baby shower for her and it was so much fun. Many of her friends from around the country were invited a month in advance and able to view the registry, purchase gifts, or send something of their choice. The ones who could attend did and everybody signed in on facebook and joined in the games, posted videos and had a blast; she was completely surprised. It was all new to me I never even knew there was such a thing LOL.

    How is your health doing? Will you find out at your ultrasound if your baby is a girl or boy? How is the job going for your boyfriend? Best wishes all is going well for you both.
  18. stariie

    stariie Community Champion

    Aww, aren't you sweet saying that you would teach me:):)!!

    And thanks for the encouraging words of it's never too late to learn something new. Sometimes I tend to focus on "the issue" (whatever the issue might be) instead of focusing on the solution to the issue:oops:.
    I know that I probably have some yarn in my garage somewhere, and some knitting and crochet needles as well. I think that I will make it my business to look for those things, and get down to the business of actually learning to knit as opposed to dreaming about learning to knit:).

    So, you and your boyfriend have been with each other for about a year and a half? Reading your comments it seems to me like things are stressful a lot of the times:( (my mama-bear coming out as usual:oops:).
    Hopefully you are taking it easy on yourself:). Are you taking lots of pregnancy pictures? Manicures, pedicures, foot massages, days in bed:cool:?? If I lived close to you, I'd want to check on you on all the time:D,
    then you'd have me and your boyfriend in your hair, :):eek:o_O:rolleyes::). Lol!
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  19. achexx84

    achexx84 Active Contributor

    I am so proud of you for you pulling though and getting your life together for you, your boyfriend and your baby. I'm sorry that you had to deal with any of that in the beginning. Not a happy thing for an adult to grow up with, let alone a child. Stay strong, hun. Take care of yourself and congratulations on your pregnancy!
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  20. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    I'm dreading the idea of having a summer baby, but I guess we get what we are handed! My daughter was born in March, so I didn't have to deal with any hot weather at all lol.

    I had my ultrasound about a week ago and we discovered that on August 15th we will be having another baby girl. It's very exciting.

    I'll probably have a baby shower a few weeks before the due date, but I was actually thinking about doing a virtual one, too. I don't know very many people who have, but I have tonsss of online friends from around the country and I think that it would be fun to involve them as well.

    The job is going well for my boyfriend, but it's really negatively effecting his mood. We'll continue to see how it goes.