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Discussion in 'Share Your Story Here' started by knitmehere, Sep 28, 2015.

  1. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    I look forward to hearing about your endeavors with trying to knit! I love knowing more people who are interested in it. You'll do great, just don't give up on it if it seems hard at first!

    He and I really do have a lot of stress between the two of us, and it's hard for him to realize that he absolutely cannot take it out on me right now. I'm actually suppose to sit down with his mother this weekend to see if she can reason with him since I haven't been able to get anywhere with it. If that doesn't work, it might be a good time for him to move out and get himself together before the baby is born.

    I haven't really been taking many pictures, and I don't spend much time in bed either because I have a seven year old to take care of. LOL!
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  2. Vinaya

    Vinaya Community Champion

    It is good that you have realized that you have a problem. It is good that you are holding yourself tight and not taking the substance. Having said that you could not hold back and said yes after there was too much insisting. The only way you can completely avoid cocaine is by not meeting people who are addicted to substance abuse.
  3. greybird29

    greybird29 Active Contributor

    Hey knitmehere here great to hear the job is working out for your young man. Hopefully his negative mood will improve and he will get excited with you. Is he using drugs or alcohol at all; they can often produce a negative mood with some folks.
    The virtual baby shower was so much fun she had family and friends join from across the country. Everyone participated in the games and provided their own refreshments that many shared pictures of. She received many gifts that she would have never received had it been a “come to Hawaii” baby shower LOL. I will talk to her in the next few days and see if I can get some detailed information on how to set up and such. I will gladly share with you and maybe you or one of your buddies (someone has to be in charge while you are the guest of honor) can set one up; I will proudly be a guest J
    Best wishes that your work at home job is keeping you busy, happy and you are making good money with very little stress.
  4. stariie

    stariie Community Champion

    Haven't started the knitting yet, lol, but I'll keep you posted as to how things are going.

    Relationships can be hard. I had a Multitude of problems with my son's dad (many years ago) before and after my son was born. How'd the meeting go with the mom this weekend? Did it take place?
  5. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    He's not using any substances. I think the stress of his job, the baby on the way, and my family is just weighing on him heavily. We're currently living with my parents, which isn't an ideal situation for either of us, so it's very stressful.

    I'm thinking about talking to my best friend and seeing if she'd be interested in helping me out with the virtual shower. She loves being involved in things, but she doesn't like being around people in person, so it would be great for her to experience. Of course I'd probably invite some of you lovely ladies!
  6. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    Well... it happened, but I can't really say that it helped much. She was also meeting my daughter for the first time, and I guess that she doesn't quite agree with how I parent (and I definitely don't agree with the way she does either, considering she's let her son be homeless and wanted nothing to do with him until she found out I was pregnant). So, I don't think she'll be siding with me on anything anytime soon.
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  7. rajesh

    rajesh Senior Contributor

    I am very sorrI would just say you this line- You can do it! Nothing is impossible for you. Remember, you need to leave cocaine if you want to live a healthy life. There are many success stories that you can read on the Internet. They will definitely inspire you. Feel free to post in this forum if you want to get any type of help . You are not alone. We all are here to help you. Good Luck.
  8. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    Thanks @rajesh I've stayed away from it for a good while now, and I actually think it's been either just over a year or just under at this point.
  9. Winterybella

    Winterybella Community Champion

    Keep at it. I read your story from time and I am very encouraged by your progress. You actually had me considering knitting but I am no good at it.:) I'm sorry things did not go well with your boyfriend's mom but don't let that get you down. Time has a way healing or working things out. While you have a lot going on and it can be overwhelming at times remember that this too shall pass.
  10. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    I start a new job outside of the home tomorrow! It's actually the same as the last job I had, just I make $3 more an hour and there is a lot more room to move up in the company. I think this is a great step towards getting out of my parent's home before my baby is born.
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  11. Winterybella

    Winterybella Community Champion

    So happy to hear about your new job. Best wishes to you.
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  12. knitmehere

    knitmehere Community Champion

    Thank you! I'm rather nervous about it, but I really think it will make a difference in my mood to be able to get out of the house more often over the next couple of months.
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  13. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @knitmehere... Congrats on the new job! How exciting for you! I wish you nothing but the best! :)
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  14. bhu

    bhu Active Contributor

    Hello and welcome, @knitmehere. Thanks so much for sharing your story. I'm sorry to hear about your upbringing and slip. However, you've got that awesome daughter and two months' clean time to be proud of. Congratulations! As for your friends, you might consider replacing them with recovery friends, like the ones you'll find here and in AA and NA meetings. You might also check out AlAnon meetings (friends and family 12 step group), as well, since your parents were addicts. You could also look into AlaTot for your daughter. It's for children of addicts and alcoholics. They start in AlaTot and grow up into AlaTeen, both sponsored by AlAnon Family Groups. You can look up the Al Anon World Service Office toll free number to find local groups nearest you. It could make the difference for your daughter in keeping her from inheriting the family disease of addiction. Best wishes to you both and please keep coming back to let us know how you're doing. :) <3
  15. djolem

    djolem Senior Contributor

    As I have told you once before here you need to set your goals and straighten up your priorities and as I remember you have plenty of those. You are on a good track and you know that of course. The beginning is the toughest but you are far from the beginning now. So how are you? is life better at least a bit? Your family? What is the situation in that area right now? Best wishes and hang in there.
  16. tgthewriter1

    tgthewriter1 Member

    Control, we all want to control what we can do in our lives. But, control comes with a price. You have the pay the price to get out of jail. You want to control your life then you need to focus on making money and getting your finances in order. You should probably go to school for something and try to make your life better. That’s the best advice I can give you.
  17. stariie

    stariie Community Champion

    Dammito_O. I feel for you doll.
  18. stariie

    stariie Community Champion

    Congrats on the new job!!!!!:):D $3.00 more an hour is a good thing:).
    It is always a good feeling to make your own money and be self-sufficient, knowing that you can take care of yourself.

    Can you give us any new info since it's now Wednesday and you've been on the new job for two days? How's the job so far??
  19. Okaviator

    Okaviator Senior Contributor

    Just stay strong, we are here for you. Also make sure to surround yourself with positive people that may be going through the same thing as you.
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  20. tgthewriter1

    tgthewriter1 Member

    I think your plan of knitting to make a buck is waste of time. We are living in a different era. You need to find a updated way to make money. Due to the economy and lack of actual jobs. I recommend that you find something to do on the internet. Now, the internet jobs do not pay much but 100 bucks a week is better than zero. That’s what I am doing at the moment. I was looking for a job but I been having a time looking for one. So, it’s not just you. A lot of people are having a hard time looking for a job. People that have a criminal record and don’t have criminal record. You heard a lie on T.V. This economy is not getting better. It’s getting worse every day. Corporations think it’s fun to watch people fight for resources. They have the money to fix this situation but they are not going to fix it. So, it’s up to you make a job. You might want to become a writer. There are plenty of websites that require the help of people who can write. In any event, you need to get on a computer and look for a way to make money online. You can’t wait for forever.