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Have you ever had a friend who died for heroin?

Discussion in 'Heroin' started by whitenoise, May 28, 2015.

  1. whitenoise

    whitenoise Senior Contributor

    Hi guys, have you ever had a friend who died for heroin? Sadly I had.. it was just the past week and it was terrible. The whole family crying at the funeral was distressing. This guy was a friend of mine from a couple of years and I felt like I knew him from more and more ages.. I just don't even have the words for this fact. He was addicted since like 2 months and he got basically shot from a drug dealer because he wasn't paying his debts with him for too long... All this is just stupid... how can a young guy die like this?
  2. MyDigitalpoint

    MyDigitalpoint Community Champion

    That' the problem with heroin and other street drugs. People can get them for nothing in the beginning, then when they are hooked up cannot pay for the high price tag those unscrupulous dealers put on them, and it's so sad to hearing someone can be killed by a gun, not by the drug itself.

    Personally I haven't had any friend doing drugs, but have heard stories from other people complaining on how they are introduced into drugs receiving these for free, ignoring the incredible high cost they might have to pay whether in money, health or life itself.
  3. Danyell

    Danyell Community Champion

    @whitenoise I am a IV heroin addict and have been for years now. I can't tell you how many people I know that have died due to their addiction. Some like what happened to your friend and others OD's. Another friend of mine just passed away 2 days ago from an overdose. I am still battling with my addiction and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
  4. Totalarmordestine

    Totalarmordestine Senior Contributor

    A little bit too much heroin is enough to shut down your breathing and your heart. the problem is you never know what the strength of the heroin is that you buy. you can think that you have a low dose of heroin but you're actually taking a high dose which can kill you. there is a fine line between how much heroin it takes to get high and to stop your breathing and heart.
  5. tarverten

    tarverten Senior Contributor

    I have lost many friends.
    Not necessarily from a quick OD as the result of an addiction, but over a period of time from slow OD.
    You can't blame yourself. The fact that you did drugs together and you were able to walk away from it is an example of how some people are prone to addiction and some are not.
    My brother has a PhD in Neurobiology and works for the National Institute of Health in the area of addictive behavior. We have talked at length about this particular subject.
    Certain areas of the brain and chemicals which naturally occur in brain function have been shown and continue to be studied as a contributing factor to addiction, particularly to certain drugs which are introduced to the brain at a young age.
    You are not at fault. You did everything you could do. I'm so sorry you lost your friend. I don't know there was anything you could have done for him that you didn't do.
    Maybe you can learn more about addiction and help others.
    In the mean time, put this to rest in your heart and your mind that you did everything you could with the knowledge you had at the time.
  6. blastguardgear

    blastguardgear Senior Contributor

    First off, I want to say I'm really sorry for the loss of your friend. I felt my stomach drop when I read this question, you'll understand why in a minute.

    I overdosed and died a few months ago. No pulse, not breathing, had to use shock paddles and adrenalin and all that to get me back. Nobody will be straight with me about how long I was gone, all I know is everything stopped. I knew when I shot the dose that something was really, really wrong- my legs gave out, and my last thought was, "Oh f^ck..." because I knew, in that last moment, exactly what had happened, what I'd done. And the last thing I felt was this unreal, overwhelming feeling of regret and shame, knowing it was all for nothing, knowing I was leaving it all behind for nothing, for a f^cking needle full of numbness, that my family had just lost my father 9 months earlier, and I was following right behind him. So yes, if she died anything like I did, if she was an IV user (injecting the drug) she probably knew in that last moment that it was over and probably knew she had overdosed. The only consolation I can offer is that she felt no pain, that it was probably that high she'd been chasing for however long she'd been using, that ultimate, best-ever feeling all us junkies chase after.

    As for how it killed her even though she was a regular user- the thing with street heroin is that you never know what's in each dose, each pack, each bag. If she'd gone to a different dealer because her regular connection was out of dope, that could have been it. Heroin isn't a "clean" drug like aspirin or Tylenol- it's made by novice chemists in back alley labs. Some is unbelievably strong, like the stuff I overdosed on, and some is so weak, it'd take massive amounts to feel any high whatsoever, or to get rid of the dopesickness. It's all pure when it comes out of the lab, but each dealer "cuts" it differently, making some really strong, and some really weak.

    And last off, as for how long it would have taken- no more than a minute, probably more like 10-20 seconds. Honestly, if I could choose how I die, that'd be it, another heroin overdose, because the end is so quick and painless, and you get that last rush that tops everything you've ever felt in your entire life.

    Again, I'm sorry for your loss. It usually is the regular users that die, like me, because we tend to think we've got it figured out, or sometimes we're just reckless and don't care if we live or die, because the pain of living is so great that any pain death may bring would be a sweet relief. I'll be praying for her, and praying nobody else dies off the dope she was using
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  7. thepieeatingjay

    thepieeatingjay Senior Contributor

    I've never had anyone die from it. But I do know a couple of friends that have used a bit. I just consider myself fortunate that my friends stopped before they passed or their addictions got too severe.
  8. whitenoise

    whitenoise Senior Contributor

    I'm sorry to hear this. It's said when you have friends that dies for such stupid reasons.. I get really get it.
  9. xTinx

    xTinx Community Champion

    I've often heard of or read about random people in the news meeting the same fate. It's sad how a great chunk of the world's population has lost itself to the lure of drugs as if addictive substances are more powerful than human beings and their intelligence. I'm sure your friend didn't want to die like that. His death should serve as a lesson to his loved ones and those taking drugs without just cause.
  10. Sparkster

    Sparkster Community Champion

    Unfortunately, I've known a few people who died from using heroin. Some were family, some were friends. I have also known people who have been shot, stabbed, etc for being involved with drugs in some way. It's amazing how they clearly all end up going down the same path and everyone can see it yet there will always be other people who follow in their footsteps.
  11. portraitofjs

    portraitofjs Member

    OP, I'm really sorry to hear this. One of my best friends died from heroin in April, and another friend - though not as close - died from a heroin OD just last month. I still think about both of them every day. I wish you the best in dealing with the pain - I know how hard it is.
  12. whitenoise

    whitenoise Senior Contributor

    Thanks mate, I appreciate this and condolences for your friends I fell sorry for you but we have to be strong and keep going as our life does.