@Northwoods hello and welcome. The evil opiods will keep you in this cycle unless you get help. We promise we don't want that withdrawal again until next time. Plus your secrets keep you sick. You need help to stop. Coming here is a great first step. I finally went to a methadone clinic. I'm 4 months clean. When the time comes I will taper slow and safe. I have weekly groups and one on one counseling. I'm being blunt here but you are setting yourself up for more relapse. I pray it works this time but if not seek help.