When I went downstairs to get in my truck this morning, I looked down at the floor and saw a piece of a broken mirror….i thought I had cleaned that up…..then I look up and realize my mirror is smashed into a thousand pieces…and I look down at my right hand and its covered in dried blood. I don’t remember doing it. This is the second time….i did the same thing a couple months ago and don’t remember doing it…I love alcohol, its my heroin….it makes me feel so good and I am a happy when I drink. I do not get angry or violent. Ive been looking at the little cuts all over my hand all day and just thinking about WHY I did it…why????? I got divorced about 4 years ago…..im over it now but it took about 3 years, it broke me in half and that was the catalyst for hard drinking. Thanks for any advice or opinions. Im not ready to stop drinking. Im 46, male.