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Discussion in 'General Substance Abuse Discussion' started by notanangel, Apr 28, 2018.

  1. notanangel

    notanangel Member


    My name is Holly and I'm addicted to codeine. I've been using on and off for two years, which I know isn't long compared to other people. I only used it for real pain before, but after losing my job I got depressed and have been self medicating. It's not at its worst level now - at one point I was taking 6 or 7 tablets four times a day, how the hell I survived I don't know - but it can't carry on. I'm functional and hide it well, but still. I know I can't carry on with this.

    I posted on another forum and have recieved good advice, but I think I'd benefit from hearing from other addicts and people in recovery as well. At the moment I'm planning on tapering down at the end of next week, but I'm scared. I don't want to go cold turkey as I get so low while doing it, and I start a new job Monday. I usually take my dad's prescription (awful I know) but have ran out and ordered online. It was too easy, and now I'm tempted to order more. I know I need to change but keep making excuses and minimising things. I need some support, and probably some straight talking tough love as well.

    I haven't got much RL support. The Dr is out as I don't want to jeopardize my employment chances, me and my parents don't have a great relationship, and logistically getting to NA would be difficult as the nearest one is 25 miles from me and I don't drive. I'm grasping at straws as I need to change but can't see a way out.
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  2. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @notanangel hey there! i responded in a different post.
  3. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    @notanangel... How are things going? Let us know if you have a chance.
  4. jai

    jai Member

    U need to quit now. I started using opiates prescribed by a dr at a very young age it. I was taking over 20 pills a day when that didn't satisfy me I went to oxycodine and so on. By the time I learned that opiates were body addicting it was to late. I hide my addiction for over 20yrs. I had a great job, house cars extra so my family didn't think I had a drug problem. Anywayou I just quit using heroin 2 yes ago and I still don't feel right. I have no motivation depressed. When I was in rehab the younger people recovered faster than me I noticed they were better in 3 days. I'm still feeling like **** after 2 yes. Just stop it now. You will feel like **** for a few days but it's better for us in the long run
  5. Dominica

    Dominica Author, Writer, Recovery Advocate Community Listener

    @jai i am glad you got off heroin. i do hope you feel like yourself again soon!! thank you for reaching out!
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  6. lonewolves

    lonewolves Senior Contributor

    Hi @notanangel,
    Glad you are here and trying to better your life. If there’s one thing I’ve learnt from sobriety, it’s that the path’s to recovery are hard, no matter how long the struggle. I had difficulties going to AA when I quit drinking, because I felt like an imposter. I felt like people have had it much worse than I, and longer than I, so it would be rude to be there. Eventually I realized the love and support in the community for all addicts, no matter the duration. I hope you find that same support and respect here as well. I’m still relatively new to this forum, but it’s been very useful to me, and has actually stopped me from using coke a few times already.

    We’ve got your back!
  7. deanokat

    deanokat Community Organizer Community Listener

    Hey, @notanangel... I hope things are going alright with you. Check in with us if you can. We're here and we care about you.

    @jai... So happy to hear that you were able to slay the heroin addiction beast. Congrats to you! Thanks for sharing your insight here.
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  8. Jai50

    Jai50 Senior Contributor

    Thanks my this is my new name. It was a hard due
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