I am new here. I had not seen my 20 year old daughter in over a year. Not for lack of trying. Her father called me in May to say she is addicted to Heroin and he was bringing her to detox. They sent her to the hospital because they said she was very sick. When I got there, she was temporarily blind and screaming in pain. She had 103 fever. She was diagnosed with Endocarditis. A staph infection was introduced to her blood when shooting up. She had vegetation on both heart valves. The emboli were thrown from her heart to her brain which gave her multiple strokes, collapsed lungs, blood infection, and pain everywhere. She received IV antibiotics for eight weeks round the clock. I stayed in a chair next to her bed for the two months in the hospital. She got better and the doctor’s told her most patients with this don’t make it. She had been doing three grams of heroin a day, smoking crack, cocaine, etc. I would have thought this would have put such a scare into her. She said she doesn’t regret doing it and that when she went to get clean, it was just so she could do heroin again and get a high since she had reached a tolerance. The surgeon said her heart valves are damaged and she needs open heart surgery. She is in Rehab and won’t return my calls. I am worried sick that once she gets out she will use again. They told her if she uses, the infection will return and she may die. She said she isn’t scared to die. I don’t know what to do. I can’t stop crying and everyone is telling me to prepare myself for her death. I can’t. I just can’t. I appreciate anyone’s comments. Thank you.