Hello everyone, I am a recovering alcoholic and drug addict. I have a mental health clinic I go to during the week, but I am not currently taking any dual diagnosis (recovery) classes. I started abusing drugs and alcohol when I was a teenager, and my parents put me in rehab when I was 17. When I was 18, my psychiatric illness caused me to be hospitalized a number of times, and most of the time, I did not have access to drugs or alcohol. So, when I was able to get my own apartment in my mid-twenties, I started abusing cough medicine. I abused cough medicine, sometimes on a daily basis, for almost 15 years. I would go around to different drugstores, grocery stores, and superstores, all over the city, and buy them. I hid my abuse and addiction. I would throw the bottles and packages into the trash, and I would rip up the packages. Finally, I was hospitalized for an inability to urinate. They gave me a catheter and told me that Coricidins have an ingredient in them which can stop your ability to urinate, and you can die of renal (kidney) failure without a catheter. It happened a second time, because I chose to keep using them. The second time they gave me catheters to take home, but I went into rehab for the second time in my life. I paid attention in class. I attended a few twelve step meetings. I earned a coin. But soon after I relapsed again. This time I found alcohol, marijuana, cocaine, and crack-cocaine. I smoked a lot of marijuana, did cocaine three times with a boyfriend, and smoked crack-cocaine once. Thankfully, I didn't do it again, and I never want to, but I turned to alcohol, especially since the drugstore cashiers were getting very concerned about me. So, bottles piled up in my home I didn't want to recycle for fear of being discovered. Finally, I told my father about it, and I haven't had a drink since, but I crave it, and I am having a craving right now, although for technical reasons I cannot go out and get any, but I feel very uncomfortable without it.